story of -=K=- :: part 33
But that night.. K smsed T... he said.. "would u forget about me when u reached the chalet?" but T said " no I would not forget u dear..." What K really meant when he asked that.. was he was asking for her to tell him that she had reached the place safely.... But T interpreted it as K didn't trust her... It was total miscommunication... When K smsed T.. it was about 9 pm... and after that... there was no more reply from T... he waited.. waited for T to tell him that she had reached safely... but no.. T didn't do that... The moment T reached the chalet.. she forgot totally that K was waitin for her to sms him... when the time reached 11 pm.. K was getting worried....
Every night, K didn't call T... it was because T was at home... there was no excuse for K in not calling T anymore.. but that day, T wasn't at home.. and therefore.. K was worried.. he was afraid something might have happened to T... and so he called her on her hp... but the hp was not on.. it was scary for K... suddenly after smsing T.. there was no more reply. On T's side, the moment she reached the chalet, she left her hp some place... there was no reception at that chalet... and so T didn't realise that K couldn't get her. But on K's side, he felt very anxious. He had no idea where was the place, and had no idea why T offed her hp... he knew that T had went home to charge her phone. So it wasn't possible that there was no battery... K got worried by the minute.... When the time reached 1 am.. K was already very very anxious.... K thought to himself.." there is no way that T had no battery... maybe she had no reception.. but even if there is no reception... there wuld be reception at some time..." so K panicked. He was afraid that something might happen to T.. he pondered about everything that might happen... " T met with an accident and her phone dropped?" " T got her phone stolen?" " T's phone was spoilt"
If T's phone was spoilt, she would have told K.... so that leaves only a few options.. which was T had forgotten that K was waiting for her to tell him that she had reached the place safely.... Or that T had met with an accident.... Both would hurt K very very much... but K didn't think that T would forget to tell him that she has reached the place... so K kept thinking that something must have happened to T... K was really worried... But T didn't know... K was anxious.. but T didn't know..the feeling was just like K didn't know that T was crying the other time.... K didn't want anything to happen to his dear T... K couldn't sleep.. he was fidgeting in his bed... eventually.. K didn't know what to do... something told him that he was worrying for nothing.. T just enjoyed herself and forgot about K...
The next morning came... and K was awake at 6 am. He was still very worried.. so he wanted to call T's family. He picked up the phone... but decided not to as it was too early... he thought tht if something happened to T... T's classmates would have told hr family... so the only ppl that will know whether T I in trouble... is her family....So K thought to contact her family as early as he can.... K waited... he waited till it was 7 am before hecalled her family.... At this time.. K hoped that t was ok.... He hoped that nothing hadhappend... so he asked her brother who picked up the phone did u all reciee any call from T last night?? And her brother said... no... T is in chalet.. K heaved a sigh of relief. K was happy that T was safe... in fact, he felt at that time if something happened to T, he wouldn't know what to do at all... it was really scary if somethin really happened to T.... all the worry that K had was uncalled for....So he put them all aside.... And went back to sleep..
Finally , at 11 am, T called.. K was still sleeping... but when he knew it was T who called, he jumped out of bed... he told T... " why didn't u call me last night? Why did u off your handphne? Why didn't u try to contact me? Did u know how worried I was? Do u know I couldn't sleep for the night?" As much as K is worried, he often showed his concern with harshness.... In his heart, he truly was worried... but his mouth, although conveying the same message to T, made T felt 10 times as hurt.... T couldn't sense that K was worried for her.... All the times that K hurt T, he had never meant to... he didn't filter his words... his words were harsh but his heart was pure. K literally shouted at T.... he was mean to her again.... T tried to say that there was no reception.. and she forgot about it.. she enjoyed herself thoroughly... and that was why she forgot to tell K that she had reached the place safely... K said.." how do I know where u were? How was I supposed to find you if u really had some mishaps? Wht can I do when u are so unconcerned about my concern towards you? " K's words were really sharp and thrusting like knifes... they were flying everywhere.... Hitting T's wounded heart....
T didn't know what to say... she just kept quiet... she didn't think that it was her fault... as every night.. K no longer bothered to call her... and now she is not at home.. and K called her... she didn't believe that K was truly worried for her... she thought that K was just jealous..... T, wanted to meet K that day... T wanted to go and look for K and spend sometime with him after spending so much time with her friends.... But K refused. Although K wanted so much to see T after her exams, he refused. His mouth did injustice to his heart again....
As he scolded T ... he said the word again... that really shattered T's heart this time... he said.." If u cant even believe that I am worried for you.... Then lets break up.... There is no point in worrying for you and u don't even know it... there is no point in calling your house.... Checking to make sure that u are alright so early in the morning, and finding out that nothing has happened and what really happened was that u forgot about me just as I expected u will...."
K meant to say that he had been worried and disappointed that T didn't feel it... K meant to show that he cared... but when he said break up.... Everything else didn't get across to T anymore... T's heart was shattered. It was the final blow... she could no longer take it... even till now... K doesn't know whether T knows that he really was worried that time.... It was something that T doesn't believe that time.... K's heart was always pure... but his mouth is not...
After K said break up.. he slammed down the phone.... And hope that T would understand his intentions.... But not this time.. T didn't understand anything anymore... she had just finished her exams... and that was the worst thing that could have happened to her....K understands how she feels at that time now.... How hurtful... to have an earnest heart to want to meet your boyfriend... and before u know it... before u can fully understand his situation.... The words " breaking up" sprang into her face... it was too hurtful.... Never should a girl go through all this...
But if only she knew.. if only she knew that K didn't mean it... K had always told T... " if I had said something hurtful.. please do not take it to be true... when I am angry... never one word that comes out of my mouth is true... please bear that in mind... " but how was T to know that K wasn't speaking the truth???? But T, I think T remembered this sentence.. which made her call K again...... but alas... K was still angry when T called him.... T asked.. " do u really want to break up with me" and K... in his heart... wanted to say " no... I just wanted to let u know that I really care.. and feel hurt that u don't believe that I do care... why would I ever want to break up with you , the one that I love most?" but instead.. he said... with hard heartedness... " yes. You don't care about how I felt last night... and don't even feel that I cared and worried... whats the point of worrying for you?" T ... at this point of time... was really really hurt... she could no longer bear to speak one more word.... She put down the phone... and burst into tears...
Every night, K didn't call T... it was because T was at home... there was no excuse for K in not calling T anymore.. but that day, T wasn't at home.. and therefore.. K was worried.. he was afraid something might have happened to T... and so he called her on her hp... but the hp was not on.. it was scary for K... suddenly after smsing T.. there was no more reply. On T's side, the moment she reached the chalet, she left her hp some place... there was no reception at that chalet... and so T didn't realise that K couldn't get her. But on K's side, he felt very anxious. He had no idea where was the place, and had no idea why T offed her hp... he knew that T had went home to charge her phone. So it wasn't possible that there was no battery... K got worried by the minute.... When the time reached 1 am.. K was already very very anxious.... K thought to himself.." there is no way that T had no battery... maybe she had no reception.. but even if there is no reception... there wuld be reception at some time..." so K panicked. He was afraid that something might happen to T.. he pondered about everything that might happen... " T met with an accident and her phone dropped?" " T got her phone stolen?" " T's phone was spoilt"
If T's phone was spoilt, she would have told K.... so that leaves only a few options.. which was T had forgotten that K was waiting for her to tell him that she had reached the place safely.... Or that T had met with an accident.... Both would hurt K very very much... but K didn't think that T would forget to tell him that she has reached the place... so K kept thinking that something must have happened to T... K was really worried... But T didn't know... K was anxious.. but T didn't know..the feeling was just like K didn't know that T was crying the other time.... K didn't want anything to happen to his dear T... K couldn't sleep.. he was fidgeting in his bed... eventually.. K didn't know what to do... something told him that he was worrying for nothing.. T just enjoyed herself and forgot about K...
The next morning came... and K was awake at 6 am. He was still very worried.. so he wanted to call T's family. He picked up the phone... but decided not to as it was too early... he thought tht if something happened to T... T's classmates would have told hr family... so the only ppl that will know whether T I in trouble... is her family....So K thought to contact her family as early as he can.... K waited... he waited till it was 7 am before hecalled her family.... At this time.. K hoped that t was ok.... He hoped that nothing hadhappend... so he asked her brother who picked up the phone did u all reciee any call from T last night?? And her brother said... no... T is in chalet.. K heaved a sigh of relief. K was happy that T was safe... in fact, he felt at that time if something happened to T, he wouldn't know what to do at all... it was really scary if somethin really happened to T.... all the worry that K had was uncalled for....So he put them all aside.... And went back to sleep..
Finally , at 11 am, T called.. K was still sleeping... but when he knew it was T who called, he jumped out of bed... he told T... " why didn't u call me last night? Why did u off your handphne? Why didn't u try to contact me? Did u know how worried I was? Do u know I couldn't sleep for the night?" As much as K is worried, he often showed his concern with harshness.... In his heart, he truly was worried... but his mouth, although conveying the same message to T, made T felt 10 times as hurt.... T couldn't sense that K was worried for her.... All the times that K hurt T, he had never meant to... he didn't filter his words... his words were harsh but his heart was pure. K literally shouted at T.... he was mean to her again.... T tried to say that there was no reception.. and she forgot about it.. she enjoyed herself thoroughly... and that was why she forgot to tell K that she had reached the place safely... K said.." how do I know where u were? How was I supposed to find you if u really had some mishaps? Wht can I do when u are so unconcerned about my concern towards you? " K's words were really sharp and thrusting like knifes... they were flying everywhere.... Hitting T's wounded heart....
T didn't know what to say... she just kept quiet... she didn't think that it was her fault... as every night.. K no longer bothered to call her... and now she is not at home.. and K called her... she didn't believe that K was truly worried for her... she thought that K was just jealous..... T, wanted to meet K that day... T wanted to go and look for K and spend sometime with him after spending so much time with her friends.... But K refused. Although K wanted so much to see T after her exams, he refused. His mouth did injustice to his heart again....
As he scolded T ... he said the word again... that really shattered T's heart this time... he said.." If u cant even believe that I am worried for you.... Then lets break up.... There is no point in worrying for you and u don't even know it... there is no point in calling your house.... Checking to make sure that u are alright so early in the morning, and finding out that nothing has happened and what really happened was that u forgot about me just as I expected u will...."
K meant to say that he had been worried and disappointed that T didn't feel it... K meant to show that he cared... but when he said break up.... Everything else didn't get across to T anymore... T's heart was shattered. It was the final blow... she could no longer take it... even till now... K doesn't know whether T knows that he really was worried that time.... It was something that T doesn't believe that time.... K's heart was always pure... but his mouth is not...
After K said break up.. he slammed down the phone.... And hope that T would understand his intentions.... But not this time.. T didn't understand anything anymore... she had just finished her exams... and that was the worst thing that could have happened to her....K understands how she feels at that time now.... How hurtful... to have an earnest heart to want to meet your boyfriend... and before u know it... before u can fully understand his situation.... The words " breaking up" sprang into her face... it was too hurtful.... Never should a girl go through all this...
But if only she knew.. if only she knew that K didn't mean it... K had always told T... " if I had said something hurtful.. please do not take it to be true... when I am angry... never one word that comes out of my mouth is true... please bear that in mind... " but how was T to know that K wasn't speaking the truth???? But T, I think T remembered this sentence.. which made her call K again...... but alas... K was still angry when T called him.... T asked.. " do u really want to break up with me" and K... in his heart... wanted to say " no... I just wanted to let u know that I really care.. and feel hurt that u don't believe that I do care... why would I ever want to break up with you , the one that I love most?" but instead.. he said... with hard heartedness... " yes. You don't care about how I felt last night... and don't even feel that I cared and worried... whats the point of worrying for you?" T ... at this point of time... was really really hurt... she could no longer bear to speak one more word.... She put down the phone... and burst into tears...
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