story of -=K=- :: part 35

That fateful day was on 2nd december.... And the next day was the 3rd.... Remember that T and K always made it a point to spend the 3rd together? That day... K thought that T would remember it was the third... and so he hoped that T would apologize that she was wrong in forgetting about telling K that she was safe... But no... that was all a mistake.... How would T ever apologize when K had said he wanted to break up, and even said it twice? Everythng that K said in anger was meaningless to him, he himself didn't even remember that he said it twice. He didn't rememeber that T called him another time to ask him if he really wanted to break up, and he didn't remember that he had said it twice to confirm it. It was only now that he remembered tht he had said it twice.

Why do I say that K didn't meant it? It was because if he really meant it, how could he forget that he said it twice? It is really ironic that he could say it twice and didn't meant it. So the 3rd came... and T didn't call or sms K... She was very hurt by K... K waited.. and waited... he hoped for T to come and look for him.. but why would T ever do that? K was the one that wanted to break up with T, not the other way round, so why would T ever go and look for K? it was really funny. K expects T to look for him when he said break up.

In his heart... he never meant to break up... but T didn't know it... T wasn't a heart reader... If T knew exactly what K meant... when K said " yes I want to break up with u because u didn't even believe that I cared and worried for you", she would have interpreted it as " I want to say break up because I am hurt that u didn't believe that I cared and worried for the one I love, I want to let u know how much I care for you, and I was really anxious about you last night..." that was K's real intentions.... But T didn't know... how would she know? No one told her. Neither did K told her.

So when K smsed T that day... T didn't feel anything anymore... she just felt that K was being mad, it was K who didn't want her, and now K is expecting her to come and look for her. What a joke it must have been....

That was the worse time of K's life. K didn't know how much T meant to him... K knew that he loved T.. but what he doesn't know.. is how much he meant to T. K meant everything to T. T had put in so much into the relationship and even planned to marry K, but what she got in return was hurt and sadness. What she got in return was K's evil mouth.. harsh words... and biting nails... But K still was kept in the dark... he didn't know why T didn't want to see him anymore... He was in the dark...

And why did I say it was the worst time of K's life? Cos K has got his exams on the 6, 7 and 10 of december, which was drawing near with every second. But every second passed, and all he could do is to think of T. To K, he felt really puzzled.. he didn't know that T had been so hurt by him. He didn't meant to say break up... so he didn't think that those words are the reason why T no longer wanted to see him.... He thought that T didn't want him anymore because he was no longer part of her life... that was what he thought... but it was all wrong. It is a tragedy that he had thought that way.

For the week that K was going to take his exams, he couldn't sleep every night... he could not take it... he didn't understand why... he kept asking himself why... and as the exams date drew near... K felt very very pressurized... he didn't know how to cope with his books... he stared at a page for a few hours.. and all he could think of is why T didn't want him anymore... Little did he know that T was too hurt by him... he didn't know all that.... No one told him too.. just like no one told T that K didn't mean it ... on the day before his exams...

K msged T... " why did u have to do this to me? I cannot study aynmore because of you..." K thought that T was the one who forsaked him... He thought that T was using him as an excuse to break up.... Just because he said break up, that means that T had a reason to break up with him.. that was what he thought... but no... that was all wrong... T never ever wanted to break up with K.

Despite K's weaknesses... T knew that she loved K dearly... and she knew that K loved her deeply too. Despite K's hurting her one time after another, she could live with it... she could do it.. she could sacrifice for K. K knew that T sacrificed a lot for him... but this time... he couldn't see why T didn't bother to contact him anymore.. K was a loser... he lost his studies and his love.... He lost everything...