story of -=K=- :: part 37
If only K had asked T why.... But T, on the other hand, had tried to get it across to K many times that it was him who had made her feel hurt.... But she didn't have any heart to heart talk with K... she had no more feeling to do it... when a girl is too deeply hurt... why would she do that? She wuld just climb into her shell and not come out... that is the characteristic of a hurt girl.
But K? he didn't know at all... he could only feel T's coldness, T's hard heartedness.. T's everything made him feel that she didn't want him anymore...that day when he sent T home... he walked the slowest speed ever in his life... K was always a fast walker... he gave every1 the impression that he was in a hurry everytime.. but that day, he walked really really slowly... one reason was that he knew he will have no more chance to walk T home any longer.. and the other reason was he was really sad that T didn't want him anymore... It was that bad... even at that time... K was still trying to tell T that it was her fault that made him say break up... it never ever occurred to him that how hurtful those words are... In his mind... the words doesn't mean anything because he never meant it when he said it.... But T was hurt by the exact same words that K didn't mean to say. Why did things end up like that? It was because K and T didn't communicate at all.... There was no line of communication between them since K got his new computer....
Before K went home... he asked T to do a simple thing... he asked her.. " can we sms chat when I go home from here? The journey is very far... It was a request from K... And it meant everything to K.. K wanted to see if T still cared about him... But fate made fun of T and K again... After sending one sms to T... K waited very very long.. before he got the reply... K was really sad when he was going home.. it was heartbreaking to know that his final request which means everything to him had not been fulfilled...
Sadly.. he told himself.. " T doenst care about you anymore.... She no longer feels that u are lonely on your long jounrney home...." So when he reached home.. K was a sad K... he went to his room.. and started to think about everything... he thought... " just as I expected.. T didn't want him anymore.. she no longer wants this relationship..."
But still.. he had a hope.... So he called T... and asked.. " y didn't u want to sms chat and accompany me home???" then T said.. " her best friend called.. and that's why she forgot..." the timing was really accurate . just when T reached home... and just when K needed T to show him that she still cares... her best friend called... K was really hurt.. he was really sure that T no longer loved him anymore... if she did.. she would have accompanied him on the way home.. At that point of time... K made up his mind... he told himself... " T doenst want me anymore... I cant do anything about it... its not what I can help..." and so K became passive from that day on....
He began to wallow in self pity... he drank ... and he spent money like water... he had saved some money since he enlisted... and that time... he didn't feel anything anymore... he went to pubs.. he drank.. and he drank... he got drunk sometimes... and felt temporary high a few times.... What was all that for? It was to forget about T... K was never a cheonger although his friends asked him to go everytime.. K never drank more than 2 cups of alcohol... but not anymore.. K became mad... and crazy... he drank as much as he could... he spent as much as he can.... He literally used all his money in his bank... When K was like that... everyone felt really sad for him... Everyone gave him support and encouragement... But they were all temporary...
When K was alone waiting to sleep at night, he couldn't help himself but think of T... how much he missed T then... he stopped playing games... he only played games to immune himself to everything else... Every night as he lay on his bed... tears came to his eyes... K went through a lot... being out of love. His health problems came back to plague him..
Each sleep didn't rest, Each coffee has lost it taste... Each scent had lost their smell... Every meal didn't fill, Every drink didn't quench... Every game wasn't exciting anymore. Every show lost its meaning, every min without T's love was sorrow.. Each passing day was just hell for K...
But K? he didn't know at all... he could only feel T's coldness, T's hard heartedness.. T's everything made him feel that she didn't want him anymore...that day when he sent T home... he walked the slowest speed ever in his life... K was always a fast walker... he gave every1 the impression that he was in a hurry everytime.. but that day, he walked really really slowly... one reason was that he knew he will have no more chance to walk T home any longer.. and the other reason was he was really sad that T didn't want him anymore... It was that bad... even at that time... K was still trying to tell T that it was her fault that made him say break up... it never ever occurred to him that how hurtful those words are... In his mind... the words doesn't mean anything because he never meant it when he said it.... But T was hurt by the exact same words that K didn't mean to say. Why did things end up like that? It was because K and T didn't communicate at all.... There was no line of communication between them since K got his new computer....
Before K went home... he asked T to do a simple thing... he asked her.. " can we sms chat when I go home from here? The journey is very far... It was a request from K... And it meant everything to K.. K wanted to see if T still cared about him... But fate made fun of T and K again... After sending one sms to T... K waited very very long.. before he got the reply... K was really sad when he was going home.. it was heartbreaking to know that his final request which means everything to him had not been fulfilled...
Sadly.. he told himself.. " T doenst care about you anymore.... She no longer feels that u are lonely on your long jounrney home...." So when he reached home.. K was a sad K... he went to his room.. and started to think about everything... he thought... " just as I expected.. T didn't want him anymore.. she no longer wants this relationship..."
But still.. he had a hope.... So he called T... and asked.. " y didn't u want to sms chat and accompany me home???" then T said.. " her best friend called.. and that's why she forgot..." the timing was really accurate . just when T reached home... and just when K needed T to show him that she still cares... her best friend called... K was really hurt.. he was really sure that T no longer loved him anymore... if she did.. she would have accompanied him on the way home.. At that point of time... K made up his mind... he told himself... " T doenst want me anymore... I cant do anything about it... its not what I can help..." and so K became passive from that day on....
He began to wallow in self pity... he drank ... and he spent money like water... he had saved some money since he enlisted... and that time... he didn't feel anything anymore... he went to pubs.. he drank.. and he drank... he got drunk sometimes... and felt temporary high a few times.... What was all that for? It was to forget about T... K was never a cheonger although his friends asked him to go everytime.. K never drank more than 2 cups of alcohol... but not anymore.. K became mad... and crazy... he drank as much as he could... he spent as much as he can.... He literally used all his money in his bank... When K was like that... everyone felt really sad for him... Everyone gave him support and encouragement... But they were all temporary...
When K was alone waiting to sleep at night, he couldn't help himself but think of T... how much he missed T then... he stopped playing games... he only played games to immune himself to everything else... Every night as he lay on his bed... tears came to his eyes... K went through a lot... being out of love. His health problems came back to plague him..
Each sleep didn't rest, Each coffee has lost it taste... Each scent had lost their smell... Every meal didn't fill, Every drink didn't quench... Every game wasn't exciting anymore. Every show lost its meaning, every min without T's love was sorrow.. Each passing day was just hell for K...
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