story of -=K=- :: part 41
And so K became as sad as ever again... each day.. K could do nothing but stone his life away.. K spent his time thinkin and thinking. He sat in his office whole day... he could not work... he affected the mood of his happy office.. he affected the mood of everyone... He was so depressed that everyday he skipped lunch.. he was so sad that he could only eat 2 mouthfuls of food before dumping the rest. He was so hurt that he could only sleep after thinking about T every night. Each passing day made K weaker.. K became so weak and so weak that he had no energy to do anything. Each time K had to do duty, he cried alone at night.. he kept it soft... so that no one could hear her...Each night... he thought of Why Why Why .. and why... why did all that happened...K couldn't accept reality. Somehow he felt that he will never ever forget T in his life. Each day passed and still K thought of T. K couldn't forget her... Every day K went out with a different friend... females.. males... anyone... K went out with anyone. K even went clubbing with an irc friend..... and got drunk.. in the end.. it was her who carried him and pulled him around. He was like a slump... where have u ever seen a guy like that? It was always supposed to be guys taking care of the girls in clubs.
K was no longer the same K that each and every friend knew. K was emotionally weak... he could not harden his heart and say.. " so what if T left me, I can always find someone else better.." just like his friends say. K could only say in his heart.. " why would I want to find someone else better? It is not about any girl who is better or whatever... It is about the person I can really say love now.. and that is T.." One day, K went out with this girl.. she was the most sensible girl that K ever knew.. this girl... this girl taught K about something that he never knew.... Something that was really imporatnt to all guys in army...
she told K.. " the biggest problem that army guys face with their sweethearts was... that they could not understand what their gf is going through outside. . they always think that their Gf is happy and enjoying their lifes... but what they don't know is that there is always stress and homework to cope with.. there is so much the girl has to sacrifice in order to be with the guy. Weekends are spent with their bf, which the guy will think is only right.. but on the side of the girl, they are giving up many many things and many activities or enriching stuff that might benefit themselves.."
When K heard all that... he found that it is really true.. he began to think.. he began to think how T felt.. he began to feel... he began to remember how T felt and how she sounded when she called K after studying... He began to remember how T always spent her weekends with him.. and how he had taken it all for granted... just like what that sensible girl was saying.. when K thought about all that.. he realised.. he realised how much T had sacrificed for him. How did this girl know? It was because this girl had scolded her friend's bf before and told him all that, and it helped the couple to strengthen the relationship.
And Now, K started to think.. he started to hear in his head... how T said.. " can I talk to you for a while? I m really stressed up.." the voices were stirring in his head.. he began to hear.. " can u accompany me to the airport to study? I really want you to be there.." " I need to get back to my books now.... Very stressed.." K heard all these.. in his head.. he began to realise how much t needed someone to help her.. to at least show support and encouragement.. at least show concern for her... K realised how much T was suffering.. at that very moment his friend told him. But it was all fated... If K didn't break up with T, he would never have gone out with that friend of his.. it was because of his break up that made him go out with other girls and other friends. It was because of him going out with them that made him realise what did T went through. If T didn't break up with K, K would never know. But now T had broke up with K, and K finally realised it, K finally knows how it felt.. but it was all too late..
But in her heart. She still loved K.. she sent greetings to K on christmas and new year... but K didn't respond.. she wished him merry christmas... But K never felt one bit of merry during that time... she wished her happy new year... but K didn't felt one bit of happiness.... Every single day that K passed without T was only filled with sadness. But T.. T was feeling loved and cared for.. T could find solace with another person.. T felt the feelings that she had so long not gotten from K...T realised that K was so hopeless.. although K was the one she loved so deeply, in the end, the one that is hurt is her. Why was she so foolish to do everything for K? She thought that she was the silliest person on earth. Many girls are like that... when they have been hurt.. they can no longer show the same level of commitment and the same amount of love. It is only natural that females do that. But T although was not prepared to give , needed concern and love... if the person could give her that... it was enough..
So eventually.. T accepted the new guy....... T decided to give K up... and went with the other guy...The minute she made the choice in her life, everything begin to change again...
K was no longer the same K that each and every friend knew. K was emotionally weak... he could not harden his heart and say.. " so what if T left me, I can always find someone else better.." just like his friends say. K could only say in his heart.. " why would I want to find someone else better? It is not about any girl who is better or whatever... It is about the person I can really say love now.. and that is T.." One day, K went out with this girl.. she was the most sensible girl that K ever knew.. this girl... this girl taught K about something that he never knew.... Something that was really imporatnt to all guys in army...
she told K.. " the biggest problem that army guys face with their sweethearts was... that they could not understand what their gf is going through outside. . they always think that their Gf is happy and enjoying their lifes... but what they don't know is that there is always stress and homework to cope with.. there is so much the girl has to sacrifice in order to be with the guy. Weekends are spent with their bf, which the guy will think is only right.. but on the side of the girl, they are giving up many many things and many activities or enriching stuff that might benefit themselves.."
When K heard all that... he found that it is really true.. he began to think.. he began to think how T felt.. he began to feel... he began to remember how T felt and how she sounded when she called K after studying... He began to remember how T always spent her weekends with him.. and how he had taken it all for granted... just like what that sensible girl was saying.. when K thought about all that.. he realised.. he realised how much T had sacrificed for him. How did this girl know? It was because this girl had scolded her friend's bf before and told him all that, and it helped the couple to strengthen the relationship.
And Now, K started to think.. he started to hear in his head... how T said.. " can I talk to you for a while? I m really stressed up.." the voices were stirring in his head.. he began to hear.. " can u accompany me to the airport to study? I really want you to be there.." " I need to get back to my books now.... Very stressed.." K heard all these.. in his head.. he began to realise how much t needed someone to help her.. to at least show support and encouragement.. at least show concern for her... K realised how much T was suffering.. at that very moment his friend told him. But it was all fated... If K didn't break up with T, he would never have gone out with that friend of his.. it was because of his break up that made him go out with other girls and other friends. It was because of him going out with them that made him realise what did T went through. If T didn't break up with K, K would never know. But now T had broke up with K, and K finally realised it, K finally knows how it felt.. but it was all too late..
But in her heart. She still loved K.. she sent greetings to K on christmas and new year... but K didn't respond.. she wished him merry christmas... But K never felt one bit of merry during that time... she wished her happy new year... but K didn't felt one bit of happiness.... Every single day that K passed without T was only filled with sadness. But T.. T was feeling loved and cared for.. T could find solace with another person.. T felt the feelings that she had so long not gotten from K...T realised that K was so hopeless.. although K was the one she loved so deeply, in the end, the one that is hurt is her. Why was she so foolish to do everything for K? She thought that she was the silliest person on earth. Many girls are like that... when they have been hurt.. they can no longer show the same level of commitment and the same amount of love. It is only natural that females do that. But T although was not prepared to give , needed concern and love... if the person could give her that... it was enough..
So eventually.. T accepted the new guy....... T decided to give K up... and went with the other guy...The minute she made the choice in her life, everything begin to change again...
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