story of -=K=- :: part 48
K was stuck there for a while.. watching T leave.. to watch T leave sap K of all his energy... Every step T took away from K, K could feel his life draining away... finally , T was not in sight anymore... K had no more energy.. he sat there... and didn't know what to do... all that have happened seemed like yesterday... His head was in a flurry of thoughts. But as he sat there.. he kept thinking... how to make T realise that he had changed.... So from that moment on.. he told himself.. " I am going to do everything I can to show T that I truly love her, and that I have changed... no longer am I the immature freak that I was..."
K wanted to wait below T's block so that he could accompany T to school the next day... So K called T and asked her what time was her lessons tml.... And T said 10 plus.. K said... ok.. let me wait downstairs so that I can accompany u to school tml... But T didn't want that. T told K to go home... T told K that if he did that, he would only be forcing himself on her.. an she didn't want to feel that way about K...K said.. " if u want me to go.. I will go..." and K went home... K messaged T a lot of times that night... telling her how much he had changed.. and how much he loves her.. but T was immune to everythinga lready.. T's heart no longer bear emotions... her emotions were suppressed by the very soul of herself. But K knew it was all because of him that she had become like that.... The sight of T last night is enough to make K sad forever. That was a T that seemed so lost, so disillusioned, so hurt and so lifeless.. If it was because of K that T become like that... K was a sinner... K made up his mind... to try to get T back...
The next day, K didn't book in, he took leave... early morning he woke up... and started to write a postcard to T... he wrote a short postcard... telling her what is he doing now and thinking of.... An extract would be.. " just woke up... and start to write this thing to you... am going to the bubble tea stall later.. I don't mind taking leave and bringing it to u ... its worth it." And K set out to the bubble tea shop where they had spent happy times together... When he reached there... the stall wasn't opened yet... so K wrote another postcard to T... saying.. " I am at the stall now... hope that u like the drink..."
After K bought it... he decided to call T.. the time was close to ten... T said that she needed to go to school at ten plus.... But when K called T.. T had already went out.... T was already in school with her bf...K said.. " I wanted to give u something this morning...didn't utell me that u are going out at ten plus?" T said.. " ya, but I decided to go out earlier.. go to school earlier... " K was so sad... he had already bought the bubble tea for T... so he said.. " can I bring something and pass it to you in your school?" This time.. T sounded harsh to K.. she said.. " NO, what am I going to do when he sees it? U are not making me any happier u know."
And K realised one thing... the moment T had another guy... it would be 10 times harder to make T realise that he had changed... and so.. dejectedly.. K put down the phone....but before he did it... with his last ounce of energy... he said... " can I bring it to your house and leave it in ur letter box?" T didn't say anything more.. she simply said.. " up to u" and put down the phone.... K had the first setback... he became sad again. Waking up in earnest to do something for K.. and was put down.. this was the first time he felt so lousy... and useless.. He was nothing. T treated him like dirt... but K loved T.. he didn't mind being treated like Dirt this time... If he took so long to appreciate T, why should T appreciate him with his first effort?
And So K travelled all the way... and left the postcards inside T's letter box... But on his way there.. he wrote a third postcard... which werent decorated or drawn or colored... he was too depressed to decorate it. It only had one sentence... which wrote.. " Although I didn't manage to see you... it is still worth it..." Sadly... K threw away the bubble tea...
At night.. K send a message to T.. he told her.. " no matter how busy u are.. I hope u open ur letter box... I went to ur place just to put that in ur letter box... "
That after noon.. K was the saddest man on earth. He felt so lousy.. he couldn't do any other thing.. He met his friend.. from the same school as T.. and talked to her about everything... K felt like dying.. he didn't have any more strength... and this friend, told K to give up... its not worth doing all these while she is treating u like dirt now.. please wake up K.. she said... but K couldn't give up..
He thought about how T and him were together last time.. he thought about how great that relationship was before he enlisted.. he thought about all those times...He went to have lunch with his friend.... And while eating... suddenly K's friend told K that the guy is a rich guy.. and could provide for K... n have a car too.... When K heard this.. he was shattered again... He thought.. and he thought... when he heard that.. he could not eat anymore... he had only eaten a mouthful...
K's friend lied to him. She wanted him to give up... Seeing K in such agony hurts her a lot.. Everyone who saw K during that time couldn't bear to see him suffer anymore.. The only person that could bear to see K suffer was T..... But also, the only person that would suffer for K was T too. K's friend lied... She wanted K to know the sad reality that T is already with someone else..
K thought in his head.. " what a happy sight... someone going to lectures together with T.. someone going for lunch with her everyday.. someone who could be there and take care of her everyday... drive her home... going out after school.. provide for her needs as he was rich... pay her bills... etc etc..."
When K thought about all these.. he realised that he could not give T anything... All he had was his love.. and T didn't trust his love anymore... He thought... " if T was happy with all these, then he would give up... and wish them all the best..." He hoped that T was really happy with him... So K picked up his handphone... and msged T " I know he is rich and have a car... if all these are important to u and u really like him, and have no more feelings for me.. I will give up ..." T took some time to reply K... but when she replied... she said.. " He is not rich and doesn't have a car.. I will love him.."
When K saw this sms... it was as if a thousand stones crumbled on him...While he was crossing the road.. he didn't even look at whether there was any cars... luckily.. K's friend pulled him back.. or he would have met with an accident at town... T hardened her heart.. to make K give up.. But not K... he would not give up... and so he called T... he said.. " Do u really not want to give me another chance?"
T replied.. " yes..dun force me..." K said. " Is he really that good? I don't know, but if he comes in at this time.. either he is only playing with you.. or he is just taking his chances... The people that gets the girls are pple like these...please do not be fooled... " K didn't know why he said this... he was in pain.. intense pain.. When T heard this.. she was pissed... and put down the phone abruptly.....
K wanted to wait below T's block so that he could accompany T to school the next day... So K called T and asked her what time was her lessons tml.... And T said 10 plus.. K said... ok.. let me wait downstairs so that I can accompany u to school tml... But T didn't want that. T told K to go home... T told K that if he did that, he would only be forcing himself on her.. an she didn't want to feel that way about K...K said.. " if u want me to go.. I will go..." and K went home... K messaged T a lot of times that night... telling her how much he had changed.. and how much he loves her.. but T was immune to everythinga lready.. T's heart no longer bear emotions... her emotions were suppressed by the very soul of herself. But K knew it was all because of him that she had become like that.... The sight of T last night is enough to make K sad forever. That was a T that seemed so lost, so disillusioned, so hurt and so lifeless.. If it was because of K that T become like that... K was a sinner... K made up his mind... to try to get T back...
The next day, K didn't book in, he took leave... early morning he woke up... and started to write a postcard to T... he wrote a short postcard... telling her what is he doing now and thinking of.... An extract would be.. " just woke up... and start to write this thing to you... am going to the bubble tea stall later.. I don't mind taking leave and bringing it to u ... its worth it." And K set out to the bubble tea shop where they had spent happy times together... When he reached there... the stall wasn't opened yet... so K wrote another postcard to T... saying.. " I am at the stall now... hope that u like the drink..."
After K bought it... he decided to call T.. the time was close to ten... T said that she needed to go to school at ten plus.... But when K called T.. T had already went out.... T was already in school with her bf...K said.. " I wanted to give u something this morning...didn't utell me that u are going out at ten plus?" T said.. " ya, but I decided to go out earlier.. go to school earlier... " K was so sad... he had already bought the bubble tea for T... so he said.. " can I bring something and pass it to you in your school?" This time.. T sounded harsh to K.. she said.. " NO, what am I going to do when he sees it? U are not making me any happier u know."
And K realised one thing... the moment T had another guy... it would be 10 times harder to make T realise that he had changed... and so.. dejectedly.. K put down the phone....but before he did it... with his last ounce of energy... he said... " can I bring it to your house and leave it in ur letter box?" T didn't say anything more.. she simply said.. " up to u" and put down the phone.... K had the first setback... he became sad again. Waking up in earnest to do something for K.. and was put down.. this was the first time he felt so lousy... and useless.. He was nothing. T treated him like dirt... but K loved T.. he didn't mind being treated like Dirt this time... If he took so long to appreciate T, why should T appreciate him with his first effort?
And So K travelled all the way... and left the postcards inside T's letter box... But on his way there.. he wrote a third postcard... which werent decorated or drawn or colored... he was too depressed to decorate it. It only had one sentence... which wrote.. " Although I didn't manage to see you... it is still worth it..." Sadly... K threw away the bubble tea...
At night.. K send a message to T.. he told her.. " no matter how busy u are.. I hope u open ur letter box... I went to ur place just to put that in ur letter box... "
That after noon.. K was the saddest man on earth. He felt so lousy.. he couldn't do any other thing.. He met his friend.. from the same school as T.. and talked to her about everything... K felt like dying.. he didn't have any more strength... and this friend, told K to give up... its not worth doing all these while she is treating u like dirt now.. please wake up K.. she said... but K couldn't give up..
He thought about how T and him were together last time.. he thought about how great that relationship was before he enlisted.. he thought about all those times...He went to have lunch with his friend.... And while eating... suddenly K's friend told K that the guy is a rich guy.. and could provide for K... n have a car too.... When K heard this.. he was shattered again... He thought.. and he thought... when he heard that.. he could not eat anymore... he had only eaten a mouthful...
K's friend lied to him. She wanted him to give up... Seeing K in such agony hurts her a lot.. Everyone who saw K during that time couldn't bear to see him suffer anymore.. The only person that could bear to see K suffer was T..... But also, the only person that would suffer for K was T too. K's friend lied... She wanted K to know the sad reality that T is already with someone else..
K thought in his head.. " what a happy sight... someone going to lectures together with T.. someone going for lunch with her everyday.. someone who could be there and take care of her everyday... drive her home... going out after school.. provide for her needs as he was rich... pay her bills... etc etc..."
When K thought about all these.. he realised that he could not give T anything... All he had was his love.. and T didn't trust his love anymore... He thought... " if T was happy with all these, then he would give up... and wish them all the best..." He hoped that T was really happy with him... So K picked up his handphone... and msged T " I know he is rich and have a car... if all these are important to u and u really like him, and have no more feelings for me.. I will give up ..." T took some time to reply K... but when she replied... she said.. " He is not rich and doesn't have a car.. I will love him.."
When K saw this sms... it was as if a thousand stones crumbled on him...While he was crossing the road.. he didn't even look at whether there was any cars... luckily.. K's friend pulled him back.. or he would have met with an accident at town... T hardened her heart.. to make K give up.. But not K... he would not give up... and so he called T... he said.. " Do u really not want to give me another chance?"
T replied.. " yes..dun force me..." K said. " Is he really that good? I don't know, but if he comes in at this time.. either he is only playing with you.. or he is just taking his chances... The people that gets the girls are pple like these...please do not be fooled... " K didn't know why he said this... he was in pain.. intense pain.. When T heard this.. she was pissed... and put down the phone abruptly.....
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