story of -=K=- :: part 48

K was stuck there for a while.. watching T leave.. to watch T leave sap K of all his energy... Every step T took away from K, K could feel his life draining away... finally , T was not in sight anymore... K had no more energy.. he sat there... and didn't know what to do... all that have happened seemed like yesterday... His head was in a flurry of thoughts. But as he sat there.. he kept thinking... how to make T realise that he had changed.... So from that moment on.. he told himself.. " I am going to do everything I can to show T that I truly love her, and that I have changed... no longer am I the immature freak that I was..."

K wanted to wait below T's block so that he could accompany T to school the next day... So K called T and asked her what time was her lessons tml.... And T said 10 plus.. K said... ok.. let me wait downstairs so that I can accompany u to school tml... But T didn't want that. T told K to go home... T told K that if he did that, he would only be forcing himself on her.. an she didn't want to feel that way about K...K said.. " if u want me to go.. I will go..." and K went home... K messaged T a lot of times that night... telling her how much he had changed.. and how much he loves her.. but T was immune to everythinga lready.. T's heart no longer bear emotions... her emotions were suppressed by the very soul of herself. But K knew it was all because of him that she had become like that.... The sight of T last night is enough to make K sad forever. That was a T that seemed so lost, so disillusioned, so hurt and so lifeless.. If it was because of K that T become like that... K was a sinner... K made up his mind... to try to get T back...

The next day, K didn't book in, he took leave... early morning he woke up... and started to write a postcard to T... he wrote a short postcard... telling her what is he doing now and thinking of.... An extract would be.. " just woke up... and start to write this thing to you... am going to the bubble tea stall later.. I don't mind taking leave and bringing it to u ... its worth it." And K set out to the bubble tea shop where they had spent happy times together... When he reached there... the stall wasn't opened yet... so K wrote another postcard to T... saying.. " I am at the stall now... hope that u like the drink..."

After K bought it... he decided to call T.. the time was close to ten... T said that she needed to go to school at ten plus.... But when K called T.. T had already went out.... T was already in school with her bf...K said.. " I wanted to give u something this morning...didn't utell me that u are going out at ten plus?" T said.. " ya, but I decided to go out earlier.. go to school earlier... " K was so sad... he had already bought the bubble tea for T... so he said.. " can I bring something and pass it to you in your school?" This time.. T sounded harsh to K.. she said.. " NO, what am I going to do when he sees it? U are not making me any happier u know."

And K realised one thing... the moment T had another guy... it would be 10 times harder to make T realise that he had changed... and so.. dejectedly.. K put down the phone....but before he did it... with his last ounce of energy... he said... " can I bring it to your house and leave it in ur letter box?" T didn't say anything more.. she simply said.. " up to u" and put down the phone.... K had the first setback... he became sad again. Waking up in earnest to do something for K.. and was put down.. this was the first time he felt so lousy... and useless.. He was nothing. T treated him like dirt... but K loved T.. he didn't mind being treated like Dirt this time... If he took so long to appreciate T, why should T appreciate him with his first effort?

And So K travelled all the way... and left the postcards inside T's letter box... But on his way there.. he wrote a third postcard... which werent decorated or drawn or colored... he was too depressed to decorate it. It only had one sentence... which wrote.. " Although I didn't manage to see you... it is still worth it..." Sadly... K threw away the bubble tea...

At night.. K send a message to T.. he told her.. " no matter how busy u are.. I hope u open ur letter box... I went to ur place just to put that in ur letter box... "

That after noon.. K was the saddest man on earth. He felt so lousy.. he couldn't do any other thing.. He met his friend.. from the same school as T.. and talked to her about everything... K felt like dying.. he didn't have any more strength... and this friend, told K to give up... its not worth doing all these while she is treating u like dirt now.. please wake up K.. she said... but K couldn't give up..

He thought about how T and him were together last time.. he thought about how great that relationship was before he enlisted.. he thought about all those times...He went to have lunch with his friend.... And while eating... suddenly K's friend told K that the guy is a rich guy.. and could provide for K... n have a car too.... When K heard this.. he was shattered again... He thought.. and he thought... when he heard that.. he could not eat anymore... he had only eaten a mouthful...

K's friend lied to him. She wanted him to give up... Seeing K in such agony hurts her a lot.. Everyone who saw K during that time couldn't bear to see him suffer anymore.. The only person that could bear to see K suffer was T..... But also, the only person that would suffer for K was T too. K's friend lied... She wanted K to know the sad reality that T is already with someone else..

K thought in his head.. " what a happy sight... someone going to lectures together with T.. someone going for lunch with her everyday.. someone who could be there and take care of her everyday... drive her home... going out after school.. provide for her needs as he was rich... pay her bills... etc etc..."

When K thought about all these.. he realised that he could not give T anything... All he had was his love.. and T didn't trust his love anymore... He thought... " if T was happy with all these, then he would give up... and wish them all the best..." He hoped that T was really happy with him... So K picked up his handphone... and msged T " I know he is rich and have a car... if all these are important to u and u really like him, and have no more feelings for me.. I will give up ..." T took some time to reply K... but when she replied... she said.. " He is not rich and doesn't have a car.. I will love him.."

When K saw this sms... it was as if a thousand stones crumbled on him...While he was crossing the road.. he didn't even look at whether there was any cars... luckily.. K's friend pulled him back.. or he would have met with an accident at town... T hardened her heart.. to make K give up.. But not K... he would not give up... and so he called T... he said.. " Do u really not want to give me another chance?"

T replied.. " yes..dun force me..." K said. " Is he really that good? I don't know, but if he comes in at this time.. either he is only playing with you.. or he is just taking his chances... The people that gets the girls are pple like these...please do not be fooled... " K didn't know why he said this... he was in pain.. intense pain.. When T heard this.. she was pissed... and put down the phone abruptly.....

落花流水 - 陳奕迅

曲：Eric Kwok / Eason Chan
詞：黃偉文
編：Eric Kwok / Jerald

流水 像清得沒帶半顆沙 前身 被擱在上游風化
但那天經過那條提壩 斜陽又返照閃一下 遇上一朵 落花
相遇 就此擁著最愛歸家 生活 別過份地童話化
故事 假使短過這 五月落霞 沒有需要 驚詫

流水很清楚 惜花這個責任 真的身份不過送運
這趟旅行若算開心 亦是無負這一生
水點 蒸發變做白雲 花瓣 飄落下游生根
淡淡交會過 各不留下印

流水 在山谷下再次分岔 情感 漸化做淡然優雅
自覺心境已有如明鏡 為何為天降的稀客 泛過一點 浪花
天下 並非只是有這朵花 不用 為故事下文牽掛
要是 彼此都有些 既定路程 學會灑脫 好嗎

流水很清楚 惜花這個責任 真的身份不過送運
這趟旅行若算開心 亦是無負這一生
水點 蒸發變做白雲 花瓣 飄落下游生根
命運敲定了 要這麼發生
講分開 可否不再 用憾事的口吻 習慣無常 才會慶幸
講真 天涯途上 誰是客 散席時 怎麼分

流水很清楚 惜花這個責任 真的身份不過送運
這趟旅行若算開心 亦是無負這一生
水點 蒸發變做白雲 花瓣 飄落下游生根
淡淡交會過 各不留下印 但是經歷過 最溫柔共震

havnt seen such a good lyrics for a long time, so as the song... as quoted from a website "《落花流水》是一首利用落花流水這種非常詩意的景象，比喻兩個人相遇時間的長短並不重要，最重要是你懂不懂得去珍惜." its all described in the song...

story of -=K=- :: part 47

K asked T..." why didn't u have a heart to heart talk with me? Why didn't u bother to do so? If u still love me u should have done so... " and T replied. " I tried to get it across to u many times that I am hurt but I still love you.. it was you who rejected me so many times..."

K was at a loss for words... All along he thought that it was T who wanted to leave him... K asked.. " I thought thatt u didn't want to commit anddidn't want me anymore... I thought that u wanted to concentrate on your studies... but when I heard that u are with another guy now, I can't help but feel cheated... Why did u do this to me?"

T said " when I told u that, I really meant what I said.. but things just happened... I don't know if I am serious or whether he is just there at the correct time, but I am with him now." K replied. " why are u with him? Do u really love him? Is he the one that u really like?" T couldn't find an answer... T could only say.. " I don't know what to say and what I like about him.. maybe I cannot rememeber at this point of time.."

K asked T.. " Do u know how hard I took it when I found out that u are with another guy? It was so hard to take it... I tried to tell myslef to be strong and forget it.. but cant.. why? Because I love you... I didn't know that u wanted to find someone else.. I thought u will only concentrate on your studies... but u lied to me..."

T said.. " I wanted to concentrate on my studies.. and I am doing that now..." K asked. " why is everything like that? Do u know what I thought? I thought that u don't want me anymore.. that was why I didn't try to salvage our relationship.. I thought u wanted to be single.... "

K thought about the times when T said.. " since I met you, I don't want to be single anymore.." but now.. K could only hear.." Its better for us to be friends..." K was shattered... he was in tears for the whole time he was talking to T. K said.." if I had knew that it was me who had hurt you so much, I would have come n looked for u sooner... I never knew that it was my hurtful words that caused u to become so cold... I love u dear... U will always be my dear... With tears, K said the words in his heart... for the first time.... He no longer used his mouth to speak from that day onwards...

t was on the verge of tears.. but she didn't cry...

she said.. " why did u tell me this only now? Its too late.. K.. its too late... If u had come sooner and told me all these, things would have been different... I had waited for u for a long time.. since the day I broke up.. no I mean u broke up with me, I have been waiting for u to do this... but when I said I loved u and u didn't believe me the other time, I was hurt once more... U were still so defiant that it was my fault... U were so accusing, and u didn't believe a word I say... from that time on.. I decided.. to put away the photo in my wallet.. I decided to treat everything between us as a memory.. that is only a memory to me now.. Its too late..K.. Its too late.."

K asked T a question.." do u really love him and want to be with him? Do u know that I have not stopped loving u since that day? I love u.... I know he may like you... but I am the one that loves u . even if he loves you... I am the one that loves u more... No one loves u more than I do except your parents... I am sure of that, now I can safely say it.."

K spoke from his heart again... he truly loved T.. Only when T left him did he realised how much T meant to him. But T said." Its too late k.. u came too late.. I am with someone else now.. and I dun wish to hurt someone else because of you..." but K said.. " no.. its never too late T... K asked T... can u tell me that u have no more feelings for me? Tell me that... tell me that u have no more feelings for me in my eyes.. and I will give up..I will stop bothering you..."

But T couldn't do it.. T didn't look at K's eyes for even a second.. K remembers the T that he saw... it was so heartbreaking.. T was looking so sad.. so hurt... so pitiful.. and it was K who had caused her to bevome like that.. T looked so weak.. so shattered.. cold and emotionless... And it was all K who did it.... K was the one that had made T became like that...and the worst part of it was... K didn't know... till that day.. T could not do it... T could not tell K that she didn't have anymore feelings for him..

K told T.. I will let u feel that I have changed.. I have really changed for you T... No longer will I treat u like that... Let me tell you, human is like that.. they will never change till something happens to them... and it is because of you, that I have changed. It is because of my love for u that made me change.I know its hard for you to believe me now.. but let me prove it to you that I have changed... the next gf that I have... is going to be the luckiest girl on earth.. I will no longer get angry with her... no longer get jealous. No longer take her for granted... "

remember the phrase that defines love? Love is patient love is kind. It does not envy does not brag, it is not proud. It is not rude. It is not self seeking, it is not easily angered. It keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.. Love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always persevere.Love never fails...

And K can now safely say that he LOVES T.. K continued... he said" but it is because of you that I have changed... my love for you made me change this time.. I am sure of it.." And T said with wet eyes.. " maybe the next girl for you will be really lucky..." But K said.." no.. but there is no one that I want to be with me ...except for you... U will be the only one for me... so there will be no next girl ... U have caused me to change.. and I want you To feel the happiness that I can give you..." but T said.. " its too late.. I am with someone else now..." K said " I Know u are with someone else now... he cares.. he is concerned.. he give u support.. I can do all that too... I know that... and on top of that... I love u more than him..."

K knows that all these he is saying is useless to win T back... What K wanted is just to let T know that he can do the same too... he wants to let T knows that his love for her is really great enough for her to trust him one more time..

But it is not easy for T to believe K again... T said.. "its too late.. why haven't u come sooner? I might have risked everything again for the last time.. but now.. its too late.. I have told myself to forget about you..."T was really hard hearted to K already... K cried in front of T.. the first time he had ever cried till so badly... in front of a girl.. but it was not any girl.. It was T.. K cried so bad....

He told T " I have never cherished you before.. and it was because pple don't cherish what they have easily.. they only cherish something when they have lost it...But I m no longer the K that u knew.. I have change totally because of you...Please give me another chance, T.." But T said " I don't know what the future holds for me, I might end up with him ,I might not. I cant say anything, but I cant give u chances, or it will be unfair to him.."

But T had never thought that if the guy had wanted to come in at this time... he himself should be prepared for K to still go after T...chasing T after a break up might be easier... but there are the cons too.. but T didn't know that... K , was burning within him, not because he was angry with T this time... he had changed.. this time.. he was angry at himself for letting someone else come into the picture.. if he had treated T well.. if he didn't neglect her, if he didn't enlist, if he didn't bought his computer, If if if if if... such a situation would not have happened... he cuold only hate himself..

But K said.. " but T, I am the one that loves u most ... cant u give me one more chance on account of my love for u? Everyone of my friends told me to give u up.. they say u are not worth it... but in my heart... u are worth my everything... please give me one more chance..."

T was silent for a min... before she said again... " I cant predict the future.. I don't know.. but now.. I just want my life to go on... "

K knew that if he begged for T to give him another chance, nothing would come out of it.. so he decided to not force T anymore... he said.." T, take it that the old K has died... the new K , which is me, is totally changed... and changed for you, the one he love most.. can't u take it that it is a new person coming after u? If u cant... can u promise not to reject my calls or ignore my sms? Just try to reply sometimes.. I would be more than happy..."

T said." ok.. if I pick up your call for the first time.. I wont reject it anymore.." K was crying badly by now... and he asked for a hug with T.... T gave K a quick hug... and was very quick to withdraw... she gave K the feeling that she was really scared of him... it was so fast.. but K could remember the times when they used to hug tightly together for a long time... but this time, it was merely a friendly hug.. If K could hug T for one more time in his life.. he would rather fail his exams.. just like T would rather fail than leave K previously...

This tragic love story is an extreme case.... Before, T would do anything for K... and now.. K would do anything for T.... After the chat... K passed the sweets which he had prepared for T... and T took them... and left....

story of -=K=- :: part 46

T was so cold towards K.. it was no longer the T that K knew... but K didn't want to give up just like that.. he loved T... and he didn't know that T had suffered so much still at that point of time. Hethought that T might have been sad.. but definitely he is taking it even harder, he knows it.. The person who took it harder is usually the one who still feels that there is a hope in the relationship... T didn't feel that there was any more hope for the relationship and so she went into another one.

K went to buy T's favourite sweets.... But this time K didn't just buy the sweets... he bought a few packs, took out all the sweets.. and took only the pink ones which were T's favourite.. and put them into a pack... Although this is only a small gesture, K only wanted T to feel at least a little happier when she eats them.. K brought himself to T's block.. and called her...

On the way there, K kept thinking.. " am I a fool? Why am I stll going afterher? Why cant I forget her? Why? Why? Why? Didn't she like someone else already? What am I doing? Why am I still taking this train to go to her place to look for her?" On the way there, it seemed like eternity... K was afraid that T wouldn't meet him....but he went... he went... dressed in the clothes that T first saw him in...


When K reached t's block... he called her.. and said that he was waiting downstairs...T cam down to talk to K.. K remembers every word that T said.... Every thing that T said.. on that day... when K saw T... he could not recognize T... I don't meant that T changed her appearance or anything.. K could not "recognize" the T that was like before... This T... had a different aura... It could sound funny.. but its true. T was no longer the same T.. she seemed to be.. cold. K walked T to a bench where they had spent many times talking before... when K hadnt enlist, K would always sit at those benches to chat with T till it was time for her to go home.. The memories they had chatting.. Hugging.. and kissin on the bench. But this time.. they were no longer going to do any of that... they were no longer together.

K remembered the first time he sat on that bench... T was so reluctant to go home... they talked and talked.. and each time T wanted to leave, neither could bear to do so.. That was the feeling that the old T could give K.. but this T.. she gave K the feeling that "please get it over with, I dun have time for you." She gave K that feeling... But K started... to ask why did T jump into another relationship so fast... K started to tell T how much he had went through believing in the wrong thing...

story of -=K=- :: part 45

Love means hope.. K didn't sleep last night... he thought... is T really this kind of girl as every1 said? Is T that bad? No.. he gave it a lot of thought... as that very moment when K's friend told him the news... he thought everything in a flash... but he cooled himself down after talking to his friend.. and asked himself.." Is T really like that? " K knew that T was not like that... In his heart.. T was the best girl that he ever had... T said before that she is going to be the best gf that K ever had... and she had did it.. K didn't show his trust to T last time.. but this time... he trusted her... but couldn't show it. It was reality and the cruel tradgedy of life.

So what K needed to do is to meet T and find out all the truth.... T didn't reply.. But K called her house.... And told her brother... to ask T to call him... to clear up the mess.... And so... T called K..... K said." Are u with someone else already? And T replied... No...Someone is chasing me but we are not together" she lied to K... till today.. K still doenst know why did she lie to him... does that mean that T had lied to him before? T had said " I had never ever lied to you.." but if she lied that time... does that mean that whateer she said cannot be trusted anymore?? But K trusted his own instincts this time... he didn't believe T.. when he talked to T.. he had so much to say to T.. but at that moment.. after so long of not talking to T ... he was so happy to hear her voice again... he was speechless... he cant say anything that he wanted to say for so many times he wanted to... all hecould was keep quiet... finally.. after a long silence, he said.. can I call u later? I don't know what to say.... And T said.. " ok "

That day.. K was revived... he felt life breathing into him when he heard T's voice.. K was so dejected. When he heard T's voice, it seemed that it was the best medicine for his wound. How much weight had he lost since T left him, at that moment, he felt that he had eaten the most fulfiling meal. K had not been sleeping well every night.. but when he heard T's voice, it was like a potion that healed his every wound and tiredness... temporarily... every ounce of K's strength depended on T's love... This could be rather lame.. but is very true. K seemed to have lost himself when he lost T.he knew he had to talk to her and have a heart to heart talk.. which he didn't ask for since the day they broke up.... So when K reached home.. he called t.. he asked T... "please.. can I meet u today.. I really want to have a good talk with u for the last time..." But T kept refusing K... she didn't want to have any more to do with K... she had given up on him.... But K still loves T.. K cant give T up.. he knows T is meant for him... Maybe T may not feel that she is meant for K.. but certainly K felt that T was meant for him...

It was that simple, if a person is the one u love, never give up.. That was K's logic. So no matter how T rejected K.. K still wanted to meet her. At that time... K asked T... " please tell me the truth, do not lie to me anymore.. if u have another guy now.. just tell me.." and So T confessed. She said "Yes I have another guy now, but it has nothing to do with our breakup." K, although knew it already, but the feeling is different when he heard it with his very own ears and from T's very own lips. K was shatterred... he asked.. " didn't u say the other time that there would be no future guys??" And T replied.. " yes I said so at that time, but everything just happened.." She sounded so cold and unfeeling when she said those words. It was really hurtful for K, but still he persisted. He asked " Why? Why did u lie to me when I asked u just now? Why?" T replied " because I feel that you didn't need to know...he wasn't a third party..." K was sad, and hurt. But he didn't put down the phone.. he asked ...can I go and talk to u tonight? T kept saying no... K was in tears by that time.. but still he persevered... and put down the phone after a chat which left T agitated...