story of -=K=- :: part 14

Ok… That was a certain time when K and T quarreled… it left T crying.. T often cried when she was with K.. Being in love with K hurts a lot… But K didn’t know that T often cried alone at night.. K didn’t know anything as T didn’t say.. At the start of their relationship, K and T made a pact remember? They promised to thrash out every single problem that they have before it gets worse.. But there was once when T said out the problem, and expected K to change… Then twice.. then 3 times..

After some time.. T got really tired.. K didn’t change.. K was still the old K.. and so she gave up asking K to change. But K didn’t realise that he had so many flaws and T always accepted them. T had flaws too, but whenever K brought it up to T, T would change for K.

Guys have a bad habit… Although many of us have heard it before, I think not many have really experienced it… the phrase is “ Man often doesn’t cherish what they have until they have lost it.” And so K was such a person. K didn’t change abit at all…

But the relationship of K and T were still strong… Both of them really loved each other. Although K was harsh with words, inside his heart, T was the only one that he could do something for. When T needed help, K never once rejected her. When T had a problem, K would always try to solve it for her. K loved T very much, but he didn’t change away his bad habits for her. But love changes a person.. Before K met T, he was the most bad tempered freak in the world. He often shouted at pple, and always made ppl angry. Every small little thing that K came across, K would flare up if he was unhappy. K was a very bad tempered guy.

But when T came into his life, T nurtured K with her love. With her love, K became not so bad tempered. K began to cultivate his temper and curb it.. K began to approach each situation with sense and calmness. And so K became a better person…

story of -=K=- :: part 13

K was a immatured guy, he didn’t care for his future or whatever, all he wanted was to just pass the A levels and get into any course. He didn’t care for his results to be top notch. He was the typical slacker.

But T was different. She studied hard and knows that she needs to. So when the A levels came, T tried to get K to study with her. Everytime T tried getting K to study, K was often late to come and early to go. T didn’t give up on K. K had a very weak subject, and that was C maths. By the way K and T was in different faculties, K was taking commerce while T was taking science. But both of them took C maths. K needed help in C maths, he just cannot do it by himself. So when K went out to study with T, K often bothered T with maths questions. T was always patient with K, but as K was seriously weak in maths, he didn’t always understand. As the exams draw near, T became worried for herself. K also realised that T needed time for her own subjects instead of helping him out..

So K became sad. He kept thinking that why is T so selfish. But T had never rejected K when he asked for his help, but K didn’t realise, K only can c that T was impatient when dealing with his problems.. K always thought that he was a sensitive guy, but he wasn’t at all. So one day, K did one thing that hurt T. As the C maths exam drew near, K knew that he shouldn’t bother T with his maths problems anymore. Although T was hardworking, she wasn’t the most hardworking girl or anything like that, she was just a normal student.

So K decided that for T to concentrate on her own work, he decided to seek the help of a girl who was great in maths, and also K’s first love. Well for the background, K had 3 gfs in his life up to now, and T was the 3rd. So K approached his 1st gf for help, and his first gf, being strong in maths and being a very helpful girl, decided to help K out…

And so K went to look for his first gf near her house… But K made a serious mistake.. although he didn’t really meant to kept it from T that he was going to his ex gf house, he didn’t tell T before he went…

After that, when T asked where was K, K replied.. “ I m at some place near my 1st gf’s house, studying maths.” T was very hurt.. She kept thinking that K had cheated her… She was really jealous.. But K was a man who feels that he is the MAN in the relationship… Although he had no ego, he felt that T had no reason to be jealous… and so he said to T, “ you cant help me in maths, I have no choice but to come find her… and please don’t be jealous and doubt me I m doing nothing but studying..”

T was hurt.. T was angry and sad.. She kept probing why K kept it from her in the first place, and kept dwelling on the subject… K had a bad habit.. Whenever he thinks its not his fault and he thinks he has been accused, he would get angry too.. and So k got angry with T.. he said” Hey I didn’t meant to kept it from u, if I meant to, I wouldn’t have told u when u asked me.. besides, u really cannot help me in maths what.”

This really hurts T… while she was angry, K always got angry and in the end it was T who always apologize. K treats all his Gfs this way, whenever they were angry with him, he didn’t feel like he was at fault. He always expects them to apologize to him. He was immature.. he was not a great guy despite his good points…

story of -=K=- :: part 12

And so K and T had rings… Both of them made a pact to wear the ring everyday.. although it was only a wearing of a ring, it symbolizes the bond btw them. Both K and T cherished the ring very much… K can still remember once.. when T couldn’t find her ring after waking up.. She cried when she woke up when she realised that she couldn’t find the ring… K didn’t get angry with T when he heard that she was crying. But although he didnt get angry at all, he reprimanded T on why she was careless.. K had this bad habit of having a harsh mouth… And T became even sadder… But eventually they found the ring.. T just dropped it somewhere while asleep…

For the few months K and T were together, they didn’t face any big problems in their relationship. K and T believed that with love, nothing is a problem to them.

But K Had high expectations of T. K was always comparing T with X.. He thought about how well X can treat him.. and so he put the high demand on T too. Whenever T did something that made K unhappy, he would bluntly put it across to T. T was a girl who had flaws, just like any normal girl, but whenever K told T that he didn’t like this or that about her, T would change for K. there was once, when K told T “ I find that you are very selfish, u always never think about others and only think of yourself “

From then on, T tried her best not to be selfish. Whenever she met K , she would consider how K would meet her, she would think of K’s every detail n try to be the most considerate gf that K ever had… She would do anything for K…

Ok.. And so the A levels approached.. K and T were in a particular Jc in the east, and near K’s house was a bubble tea shop, where K and T spent many happy moments there together. As the exam approaches, K and T decided to go to the shop everyday, there were tables and food for K and T to study…

This place was a very memorable place in the story of K and T. Every day spent there was absolutely happy.. It was studying combined with laughter and food.. Eventually the stall owner got to know K and T… As I have said before, K and T looked really young for their age.. K looked like a sec 3 or 4 boy while T looked like a sec 2 girl, even up till now when K is in the army and T is in a certain university, they still look like that.. When T flashed her University matrix card, many bus drivers often stared at it. The shop owner was also shocked that T and K were A level students, including the helpers at the shop.. And so became friends with them. The helpers also feel that T and K was quite compatible in terms of looks.. and so they eventually knew T and K.. That was approximately one and a half years ago… And so this bubble tea shop became an important landmark in the life of K and T.. Every day spent there was memorable…

story of -=K=- :: part 11

And so K and T became lovers. Every single night, K and T would chat happily.. the first few months were just like what everyone said , the honeymoon period. But K and T had a very long honeymoon period. Even after 9 months into their relationship, they were still having the honeymoon period.

Every little thing that K and T quarrelled about, They wanted to resolve it at that point. There was a time after approximately 3 months that T cried to K, she said “ if there is anything unhappy that happens between us, lets say it out and not keep it inside us… I really want we 2 to work out..” K liked T a lot too. So he said “ lets do that whenever we quarrel, “ and so whenever there was a quarrel or when T or K was unhappy with one another, they would say it all out and solve the problem immediately.

K and T had a pact , that they would spent the 3rd of every month together, as they were together since the 3rd of may 2001. Everytime the 3rd came, no matter how busy both of them were, they would spend that day together. Everytime the 3rd came, K or T would never forget it is the 3rd of the month.

A few months after K and T were together, T’s birthday came. K thought of what to buy for T, he thought hard and long. He didn’t know what to buy for her. Then finally he realised that he has no ring. There was no ring to signify the union of Himself and T. So he thought, yes, I must get a ring for both of us… And so K went to look for a ring. K wasn’t a rich guy, so all he could afford was a 60+ set of rings. The rings he bought for T and himself was silver, and it became very valuable to them.. Although it only costs 60 dollars, it seemed to be priceless when K and T were wearing it together.

On T’s birthday, K planned everything. K wanted to make T happy and make her birthday a memorable one. So K planned hard. He thought of bringing T to dinner at a posh restaurant. Let me remind u again that K was a poor guy, he didn’t have much money. To bring T to a restaurant was out of his league. T, over the 2 yrs in JC, had saved up quite a lot of money. She didn’t spend a lot , and had accumulated some money with saving. But K was willing to spend money on T. Every cent spent on T was worth it. So the plan he had was… first, K and T would go home to change, and then T would meet him in town. K decided to go to the place where had the most memories to them, suntec.

On that day, T wore a black top and a folded skirt. She was absolutely stunning. She was dressed up in something that K had neverseen before. When K saw T, he felt that he had dressed too shabbily. But K didn’t feel awkward with T, T was still the same T except that she was all dressed up. K didn’t have the ring at that time, as the people at the shop said if he wanted it to be engraved, he gotta wait 2 days so he didn’t have any gift for T except for a fermented rose. But T didn’t mind. She was satisfied as long as she could see K and be with him on her birthday.

So K brought T to a restaurant in Suntec. And they began to had a nice meal. All throughout, K couldn’t take his eyes off T. It was T’s special day, and he had planned the whole day. To this day, K remembers how T paid for the meal… She simply gave the waiter the cash when he sent the bill to K, and asked him to leave. K was shocked. He simply didn’t expect T to foot the bill. So he asked T, how could I let you pay for the meal? But T replied “ its ok, as long as I m happy, I dun mind paying for the meal” It was T’s birthday and she didn’t want K to foot the bill, so no matter how K insisted , she refused.. and said that if K was going to insist, she would get angry.

So K decided not to insist on footing the bill.. K went to buy a birthday cake instead. He bought a large cake for the 2 of them to eat… And went to find a romantic spot to eat it… This romantic spot, was very memorable to K, he had spent many special moments there before.. and that day, K brought the cake , and T to the place…. K and T were small pple remember?

So when they were trying to finish the cake, it was really a funny sight… K always thought of the times when he and T tried to do something and hey always cannot make it.. it would always bring a smile to his face… like finishing a large cake… The birthday indeed became a memorable experience to K and T...

story of -=K=- :: part 10

K still remembers that that day was a Wednesday.. It was a day that K will never forget.. That day, K and T both had ECA. K had eca in another school, while T had her dance going on in school. So K told T to wait for him to come back to school so that they can go for dinner together. The only times that T defied her parents and went out late was when she is with K.

So she waited in school patiently for K to fetch her. T sat all alone in the school for a long time.. waiting patiently for K to come to fetch her… And finally K came. At that time T saw K, both of them were speechless with words. That was the 4th time that they met. So K began tosay” where do u want to have dinner?” And t replied “ anywhere” K thought in his head… let us go to somewhere different this time… and so he brought her to a pizza hut in town instead of food court or hawker centre. So they went to this pizza hut, wearing their school uniform.

K and T were both tired, as their ECA were both physical ECA. But even though K was tired, he brought T to dinner.. at this certain pizza hut restaurant. Both K and T were small sized pple, but that night, K ordered lots of food… To this day he still remembered what they ordered.. K ordered a 10 pc chicken drumlets, 2 pepsi, one personal pan, and two lasagne. Both K and T happily tucked in after a long day. They ate happily, and these two finished all the food. When the bill came, K paid the total amount and brought T out of the restaurant…

And so it was late again, and T gotta go home.. This time.. K and T were in the happiest mood that they can be. There seemed to be no barriers between them anymore. The previous times when K was out with T, T often thought how would X feel. T often feel guilty bout asking K out.

But this time, T didn’t feel guilty any longer. T was happy that she is with K , and nothing else matters. K on the other hand, Was happy with T too. He knew that he and T was going to be the couple made in heaven.. ( or so he thinks) K waited for the bus with T to send her home..

When the bus came, K asked T “ how long is the journey”.. and T replied “ about 10 mins” At this time, K knew that he needed to ask T to become his gf. And so on the bus , K said some words.

To this day, K still can repeat the same old words…..

“I m not rich or anything, and I have sweaty palms, but are u willing to hold these hands and be with me?”

And T said “ I want.. I don’t mind. I don’t want to be single since I met you…”

And so, K took T’s hand, and both of them enjoyed the bus ride although it was only 10 mins.

Both of them were madly in love from that moment on. There were two ways to go to T’s house, one is to walk from the mrt, and the other was a bus stop. From the Mrt to T’s house it took 15mins to walk, and from the bus stop to her house it was 10 mins.

That day , T and K took bus, and they walked along that stretch of road, which was a memorable stretch of road to them. From that day on, they walked that road many many countless times…. Ok back to that day. As K took T’s hand, both were feeling very happy. There was that feeling of love in the air… K walked T home … hand in hand.. The feeling was pure sweet love. Although K and T at that time were still young ( JC 2 ), they were prepared to commit in their relationship.

K walked T to her house.. and stopped before the lift, just like the first time he sent T home. He stopped outside the lift, and said with feelings “ I love u T, I hope that we will be happy together” T let go of K’s hand, and started to say goodbye to K… “ im going up now” she said… but K and T were both unwilling to part…

So K finally went into the lift and went up with T together.. Inside the lift, In T’s heart, she knew that she needed to give K her first kiss if he asked.

Although T had a bf before, she had never kissed him before. So when K went into the lift with her, T had that feeling. But K didn’t try to kiss T, he just stood there motionless while looking at T. T lived on the 12th floor of the block, and as they walked out of the lift, T turned around to bade K good bye.

But K said, “ did u forget to give me something?” K was just being mischevous. He wanted to see whether T would kiss him by herself. But T did kiss K.. T had never kissed anyone before , so she didn’t know how to kiss… and so she tried some funny stunts.. It was really funny.. it had K burst out laughing. K didn’t know that T hadnt kissed anyone before, so he asked her” was that your first time kissing someone? “ and so T replied “ yes, sorry if I didn’t do it well”

All K’s heart was filled with humour.. he kept laughing, as what T did was really funny and K didn’t expected it at all…And so K said, “ its ok, I m happy that it was your first time ..” And T and K finally went home after that, smiling to himself like an idiot for the whole 1.5 hrs journey…

fyi

the story abt k & t has no connection to my life, so pls dun try to link anything abt the story to me. anyway, my life was much more complicated than tat i think. even thou i have no got into wat the ending of the story is. anyway, the story has 50+ parts, so juz be patient ok...

hmm... life is as normal as u can think of now... handball, soccer, jap, jsp, documentation, sleep... tats all... ppl are trying to link this and tat to me, think i should juz dun care lah, as long as i know wat i am doing, its fine. but... is tat really so or not? dilemma of hall life, u have a close gang of friends, tat u feel tat u mind let them know more abt urself, but on the other hand, knowing too much will coz gossips and misunderstanding around the place... sigh... still cant master the skill of anonymity even at yr 3 (or privacy? doing this topic for 3265, still can really differentiate them irl)... but anyway, my heart is clear wat i want lah, dun want to care wat others say... juz dunno when is the right time, and wat is the right words to say; dun want to make her angry or hate me even more. so i may juz wait, till no end, maybe...

story of -=K=- :: part 9

And so K and X broke up… K begin to be plagued by health problems. He keep having gastric problems .. as for the whole time he is entangled in this problem, he cant eat well. He cant sleep well. K was a emotional and sentimental guy. He knows he has hurt X , and he was feeling very very guilty.

But all throughout this time, T had a bad time too. Everyone who liked T begin to say what a guy snatcher she is. Everyone looked at her like a bad girl. No one could understand how T felt unless they went through it. Even K’s friends look down on T, and they were unhappy with K too. K’s friends felt that K had made a big mistake by choosing such a kind of girl as compared with X. They felt that X was too good for K to give up, and T was nothing but a girl lacking in moral values.

But to K and T, they knew that nothing they did was actually wrong. K’s female friends were also shocked that the K they knew had done such a thing. All along, they had thought that K was a guy with high moral values, and was regarded as someone who was Mr Nice Guy. They too, were puzzled why K was blinded by T. But no one knew the truth. No one knew that K wasn’t blinded by T, K had fallen in love with T. Neither did anyone understand how T felt. No one. T just wanted to be with the one she liked, but now, everyone can only c that she is a guy snatcher.

But no matter what, T and K braved all these rumours about them… and became closer….

So about one month went passed, and T was still waiting for K to give her an answer. But all along the times, she didn’t ask for anything. All she did was wait. Then one day, K asked T something.

He asked “Are u sure u dun like being single? Being single has lots of advantages u know, like not being tied down, going out with anyone u like.. etc etc…Are u sure u didn’t want to be single?”

And T’s reply touched K. T said “ From the day I met you, I don’t want to be single anymore.”

Althought this sentenece was short, it was enough for k to feel everything. K knew that T really wanted to be with him. And so K told T that he had broken up with his gf. T was happy but sad. She was happy because she knew that K wanted to be with her, but she was sad that she had done such thing. She knew that she was the one who caused them to break up. But Man is selfish. Man often only take care of their own needs first before thinking about other pple. Everyone out there is selfish. Therefore, T was human too and she was selfish too. But that is no excuse for her, she had done something “wrong” in many ppl’s eyes.

But in K’s eyes, T didn’t do anything wrong. K only knew it was his fault. He was the one that caused X hurt, and not T. So K and T were overcame with guilt. But after some time, K decided to go out with T again…

K still remembers that that day was a Wednesday.. It was a day that K will never forget...

story of -=K=- :: part 8

And so the story goes on… T waited for K every night to talk… and each night passes just as how it did previously.. T was very sad.. inside her heart.. she wished that K would ask her to be his gf, but she knows that K has another girl in his life.. She waited every day for his so called reply… but K didn’t do anything. K simply talked to T like how he did last time… So one fine day.. T asked K, what is our relationship now? What are we? K replied.” I like u and u like me, so we are talking every night…”

This is the words of an irresponsible person. K knew it, he knew he was being unfair to T. He was taking T as someone who would wait forever. He knew that T was waiting for him to give her a reply, but all he did was nothing. So when T asked that question, K was at another crossroad again. K is a indecisive man.. although he knows he has no more feelings for his ex gf, he knows that he cant hurt her, but if he lied to her, he would just be another cheater.

So inside his head, he didn’t know what to do. Finally , he told T “ I cant break up with her, please don’t force me. I really dun wish to do that” This sentence hurts T a lot. She thought that if K really liked her, why is he treating her just like someone who is going to be waiting for him forever? But T didn’t say anything, she knows that it was all her fault for telling K that she liked him.

And so T broke down. T said” from the minute I told u I liked u, I never expect u to do anything.. I am not pressuring u to do anything. The reason why I tell u I like u is I dun wish to keep my feelings inside me and not let u know”.

This sentence made K realise how much T is willing to do for him. It also made K realise that he was being unfair to T and his heart… He made up his mind then….

So K tried to break up with his gf. But K was soft hearted. He cant do it. Everytime he see her, he couldn’t bring himself to do it. Although T didn’t pressure K by words, the pressure was there for K to talk to his gf. K felt like a bastard. He knows that his gf was a very very nice girl with wife qualities, and he doesn’t want to hurt her. Although T didn’t have that many good qualities, K felt that T was someone in his life that would affect him forever. It is that something called Fate that K and T had.

So one fine day, K decided to confess to his gf. K had another friend, B, who was a lady killer. B was a two timer type of guy, who had always cheated girls of their feelings. When B wanted to break up with a girl, it was always because of another girl but he would always say a different reason. K didn’t want to do what B always did. K needed to tell his gf the truth. K thought that if he told a lie, it would be even worse for his gf to take it when she finds out the truth as what every girl that B cheated felt really really hurt after that. So K made up his mind.. and he told his gf “ To tell u the truth, I like someone else.. Please don’t be sad over me, take it as a good thing. Breaking up now, would do u good in future…”

K knew these words were heartbreaking, but he still said it, cos whatever he said was meant to be the truth… and time had proved that what K said was really true… But at that point of time, K’s gf… well im tired of saying K’s gf, so let her b X. At that point of time , X felt really hurt.. she cannot forgive K. Although all along their relationship X thought that they were not suitable for one another, and she had asked K that if he ever wanted to break up, please let her know the truth.. and now K had fulfilled her request, but she couldn’t take it.

X was the most heartbroken soul in the world at that point of time. All the 2yrs of their relationship, X felt that it was all nothing. It all gone down the drain. So did K. K thought about the 2 yrs they spent together. K thought although they had been together for so long, they had lost the feeling of being close together since the day they went to different JCs.

But still, K knew it was all his fault. He knew that he had hurt X deeply. Although when he said that it would be better for X to break up with him, he knew that no matter what, he is going to be guilty forever.

story of -=K=- :: part 7

On the side of T, after confessing to K that she likes him, she didn’t do anything. She couldn’t sleep, and all she could do was to wait for K to call her again. She waited. One hour, and a few more mins… finally at 1.30 she called K again.. K didn’t have a handphone at that time, but his friend has one, which was on promotion and was free, and so K borrowed it, and began talking to T…

K said “I really don’t know what to tell u , when u tell me this. It is really something which I don’t know to be happy or to be sad.” Then he asked her, “ do u know that I have a gf? I wont break up with her, I cant do that. I cant affect her studies. The exams would becoming soon.” But K also confessed to T” Actually I like you too, But please don’t force me to make a decision” T , when she heard that K liked her too, she was filled with happiness. She realised that she was really in love with K. Even when K has a gf, she didn’t care that much, she just want to let K know her feelings for him.

So that day, with lots of feelings, T put down the phone and went to bed.. while K was left there thinking by himself. He was in a great dilemna… Every single day passed and he thought of how to deal with the matter. He tried talking to his friends but they were giving him different opinions. Some told K to just forget about his gf and go with T, as T was really a nice girl. Some told K that this kind of girl are not worth it, forget about T.. K talked to male friends and the replies were mostly the same… He became very down and depressed.

So K went to talk to a girl who was in his CCA, this girl was B. The minute B heard from K that T confessed to him, she began to say lots of things. She said what she heard from every1 else. B told K that T is not such a simple girl. She told K that T liked some guys before and often fooled around. K was hurt. He didn’t believe what he heard, so he asked B whether she was speaking the truth. B said that she didn’t know if any of these was the truth, but it was what was circulating around in school. B told K that with K’s qualities, She is not shocked that T would like K. So K became very sad and thought that T was only playing with his feelings.

And so K became a freak. He couldn’t eat. His eyes were often dilapidated due to lack of sleep. K suffered for many weeks, he didn’t know what to do. He was sad for himself, he hated to be entangled in this web. Every day was tough to pass for K. He couldn’t eat or sleep well. He felt very stressed up. When his friends were talking to him, he was often in a daze.. he didn’t know they were talking to him.. all day he could just do nothing, neither could he concentrate on anything he do. The whole time he had to decide whether to give up his gf, or should he continue to be with her, and don’t care about T. He was in a dilemna. He knows inside his heart, he wanted his gf to not be hurt, but he also knew that he had fallen in love with T.

Although T and his gf had the same looks, When K is with T, they have something which not many couples have, which is called chemistry. K brings out the best in T, while T brings out the best in K, and that is called chemistry. But if T was the girl who often played with guys feelings, K would be really sad if he believed her… Each night, T paged for K to call her, and everytime K would only call her in the wee hours of the night. K doubted T, and one day, he asked her “ did u ever liked someone else before?”

And T replied "yes I do, it was XXXX." K thought that whatever his friend B said was true, and he probed further… No matter how T replied, K wouldn’t trust T, as the words of B were always ringing in his head. Although B didn’t dislike T, she had to tell K about the things she heard about T. B wasn’t a bad mouther, she just wanted K to make the correct choice. Finally K gave up questioning T, and decided to trust his own instincts. He knew that T really liked him, and so he began to stop doubting her.

story of -=K=- :: part 6

And so K went home alone… as he went home.. he kept thinking in his head… did he begin to treat T differently? Did he unknowingly fallen in love with T? He thought about the food he bought. Why didn’t he buy 2 shares instead of one big share ? He was confused. He was guilty to have all these feelings.

That night, T paged K again, and they began to chat… as usual… and so… since that day.. T was waiting for K to cal her everynight. If K didn’t call her, she couldn’t get to sleep… But on the part of K, he was feeling very confused… Every night he asked his friends out to play cards with him… as his 3 close friends were all living very near to him, they could play any card game they wanted, like bridge, spades, big 2, anything. So every single day, K went to play cards with them, hoping that T would go to sleep instead of waiting for him to call her… every single day, K played till 12am, even when the next day is a school day. K didn’t reply T’s page when he was playing cards, he only replied her when he reached home.. like a few hours later… but T waited.. every night T waited for K to call her, just like her bf. It was very sad on her part, that guy was another girl’s bf, and she is the one who is waiting for him to call her.

One of this nights, K asked T, “why did u wait for me to call u every night???” T had no answer. She didn’t know what to say. But she replied” I don’t know, I just want to talk to u every night, talking to u is very happy” or something like that. K wondered that if T liked him during that moment … he knows too,that he himself also enjoyed talking to T.

Then on one Saturday, T had another competition. T was a dance member, and so she had lots of competitions coming during that time. This time, T made up her mind. She decided to ask K out again..

She asked him “ this time, I am asking u out to dinner tonight, please be able to make it..” K at that time, didn’t know what to do again… he knows that if he goes, he might be drawn to T even closer. Once again K fought with his internal feelings. He didn’t know to go or not to go. K asked his friend, “ should I go?” and his friend replied” no harm going, u two didn’t do anything wrong what, eat dinner only” something like that… and so K made up his mind. He made up his mind to go meet T.

When K met T, once again he felt very much at ease. He didn’t feel pressured or anything. He enjoyed himself thoroughly, going to diner with T is like a breeze, time flies past before they know it. K and T had the most awesome chemistry that any couple could have. Never once did they ran out of words to say. Never once did anything happen that could affect their day. They were a couple that were destined to be together. But K knows he has a gf, and he decided that this was going to be the lsat time that he was going to meet T before things became too late to handle.

So he thought, ok, let me take a picture with her, and let that be the memory and it shall end here. And so K brought T to take a neoprint, and alas! The print turned out a little distorted. To this day, K stil keeps the distorted pic, it looked pretty cute with K’s face puffed up…

And so K took a picture with T, and then sent her home.. on the way home.. K could feel that T wanted to say something… T wanted to tell him something, he knew it.. but he didn’t probe. T lived some distance away from her mrt station, but there was no bus so often T walked home from the mrt. And that day, K walked her home. It was a 15 mins walk, but T and K was silent for the whle journey.

K knew T wanted to speak, he asked “ whatdo u have to say to me?” But T kept quiet. T said “nothing, nothing” And so K sent her to her doorstep.. and said” haha u live here? Finally I got the chance to send u home … remember that day when we had the project to do? I didn’t want to send u home that time…”

And T said” thank you very much for sending me, I got to go now, its really late” And bade goodbye to K. It was about 10 pm at that time. And so K went back to school. He had an Eca camp that night. He didn’t page T or anything after he left, and just thought that the night would pass easily, but it ddidn’t Although he had stuff to do during his ECA, he saw a page, and it was T’s number. K wanted to call her to ask what issit, but he had work to do. ( he was part of the organising committee.) and so he called her only around 12 am.

When K called T, T was speaking in tattered words. For the first time since they started talking on the phone, it was the first time T’s voice was like that. K asked “ why did u page me ? is anything the matter? “ T replied.” Um.. er… she couldn’t get it out of her throat…” K was in a rush. He had to do some work then, and so he said” quick, I need to do something” And T suddenly blurted out” I like u.”

K was stunned. He didn’t know what to say. He knew that from that moment things were never going to be the same again. K remembered that he had things to do, and he put down the phone abruptly..” Hey, I have got things to do now, call u another time” and he put down the phone. He went to do his stuff as the juniors were preparing for their activity. But in his head, he kept thinking, what was he going to do now..????

story of -=K=- :: part 5

K, on the other hand, was with 2 of his close friends, who were getting bored. They decided to go for their meal themselves, and bade goodbye to K. K stood in the corner while T was searching for him… And finally T found K. T went to K, and said “ im really happy that u are here to support me” “K said Well u danced really well.. tired? Wanna go for a drink?” And so T went with K for a drink at KFC…

when K was at KFC, he sensed many pple looking at them, and so he asked T, “are the pple who are looking at us your friends??” T said “no, but I know them” But at that time, both T and K were absorbed with each other, after a while, they began to ignore everyone else. They were oblivious to the surroundings. All K wanted was to have a drink with T, and so he went to q up for their food…

He ordered one large whipped potato and one large drink naturally, he didn’t even ask whther T minded sharing with him. Then as he walked back, he realised that he had just assumed that T would share with him. He didn’t know why he didn’t bother to ask T before buying, but he had already bought it.

So he sat down, and asked “do u min sharing with me? “ T replied, “no its perfectly fine” And so T and K happily ate the potato and shared the drink, just like a couple. From that moment on, T started to like K a little. She didn’t know why whatever K did, she just accepted it. She didn’t mind sharing drinks with him, she didn’t mind eating the same tub of whipped potato. It was very peculiar, as T and K only went out for the 2nd time, and T was already so friendly with him. K didn’t feel anything at first, he just ate the potato with T like as if he is sharing with an old friend…

Suddenly, someone from T’s dance group came and pulled T away, saying “the results are going to be announced soon, hurry lets go to the stage!” and in a flash , T and her friend had ran out of the restaurant.. K followed behind, with drink in hand, and all of them reached the place where the results were going to be announced.

K stood in the same corner as he just came, and sipped slowly at the drink. After the results were announced, T didn’t win anything, but she wasn’t sad at all, all she wanted was to go down stage and talk to K… But at this moment, T’s parents appeared , and T had to go home with them… The moment T came down the stage, she went straight to K to tell him that she is really sorry she’s got to leave now, and had to leave K alone by himself.. K didn’t mind it at all, but he said “hey.. u asked me to come here to support u but now I come here and once u finished u are going home… very bad…”

K meant to make T guilty. K had a very bad habit... he never meant anything hurtful when he says it. He has a good heart but a harsh mouth. But T felt guilty, T was guilty that she asked K to come all the way and then leave him there alone... and so T felt very sorry to K, and watched as K took his leave before going back to her parents...

story of -=K=- :: part 4

And so he talked to T, he asked her what was she doing online.. then she said.. doing the econs project… and T asked K what was he doing.. and K said.. im doing the project too.. T thought about the moment when K said that he got nothing to do.. She knew it was all a lie.. and so she asked K, “why did u say u have got nothing to do? Hehe”

K , didn’t know what to reply, and so he said.. “well, it was called “ ke qi hua” , which means courteous words, and he also confessed that he didn’t really meant to really send her home if he had a choice. But T said she understand, as the econs project was quite impt to economics students.

K and T then began to do their project online, while chatting to one another… both of them worked really hard.. and worked till both were really tired… But things were very coincidental. The moment K finished his project, T finished hers as well. He typed “ YEAH, I have finished my project!!!” and T replied “ hey, me too~~!” and both of them were happy and wanted to go to sleep. Then K suddenly realised that he has no diskette to bring the project to school. He then asked T, “can I send u my file now, u help me save in a diskette, and pass it to me tomorrow?”

T replied, sure, but I do not know how to receive a file from u and put it into a diskette.. At this point of time, K laughed in his heart. He didn’t know that girls can be so silly, didn’t even know how to search for a file and put into a diskette.. and so K laughed at T and said “hahaha.. u are so lousy~” jokingly. K tried to tell her online how to do it, but T, being a typical normal computer weak girl, didn’t understand one bit.

K was getting irritated as he was really tired and wanted to get to sleep, but he got to teach her how to save the file inside a diskette, and talking to her online wasn’t going to help things. So K said” give me ur house number, let me call u and teach u how to do it” and so K got her house number, and called her… that was the first time that they have talked on the phone.. K began to tell her how to do everything, how to save the file and search for it, how to put it in a diskette. After doing all this for K, T and K finally went to sleep….

So the next day came, and K went all around to look for T. He needed to get the diskette before the economics lesson. So after searching high and low, he finally found T at her locker. T passed the diskette to K, and many of T’s friends saw it. They were curious how she got to know me, and still pass diskettes to me. So they asked her, and T told her close friends.. she told them how she knew K.

K, on the other hand, didn’t tell anyone that he knew T, all he did was let nature take its course. K was a confused soul. He find himself drawn to T, but he put up a resistance against T. He knows that if he became entangled with T, his life was going to be very much affected. So K didn’t ask T out anymore.

But T began to enjoy talking to K. T paged K often, and they chatted. T had other guys liking her, but she didn’t talk to anyone of them for long when they called her. ( dun ask me why K knew this ) So T and K often talked on the phone. K had a gf in another school, but she was often sleeping when K reached home. K called T when she pages him, but he never made the first moves. He knew by doing so, he was telling T that he likes her. So since the day they met, K and T became very close.

One day, T asked K whether he wanted to go to support her during a dance competition. She said that if he could go, she would be very glad. That day was a Sunday, and K had no plans.. K didn’t know whether he should go, as he knows that there was school the next day. K asked 2 of his close friends whether they would like to go with him, to accompany him there and also to go and take a look at the dance competition. His friends agreed, and so they went there.. It was at suntec. The moment K saw T on the stage, he was captivated by her smile. She wasn’t a great dancer, but her smile says everything.

It has been a very very long time since K has seen that happy smile again ever since that day.. but anyway, K was there to support her, and after she came down the stage, T looked all around for K. She knows K was there to support her, and she looked here and there hoping to find K...

story of -=K=- :: part 3

K met T at the interchange. At this point of time, K knows that he had no more chance to avoid T, T was staring straight at K’s face, asking him why did he start to leave when she asked him to wait.. K had no reply, K simply said.” I was just about to leave, didn’t expect to c u here.”

And so K and T went for dinner at the same food court that T had saw K for the first time.. The table where they had sat at is still now visible in K’s memory, but he din know whether T still remembers.

So T and K went to have dinner, and they began to sit down. T started talking to K by apologizing.. she said she was so afraid that K might just go off, as she really wanted to meet him. K said it was ok for being late, he was often late for appts too. K and T started to talk as if they were old friends. Although it was only the first time they met, they seemed to have known each other and chatted like old buddies.

Throughout the whole dinner, K and T didn’t even had a moment of silence or awkwardness. K and T were so much at ease with one another during the first meeting that they couldn’t believe it. T ate her favourite Beef noodles while K ate hot plate noodles, a memory that K can never forget. K can never forget how T liked to scoop each scoop of noodles, add abit of beef, and a little chilli on top before eating every spoonful of noodles. K can still remember how T liked to finish all her food although she was full, as she didn’t like to waste food.

So after eating, K and T was about to go home… when K asked T where she live. And T said, I live in XXXXXX. K thought , man, I am not sending her home, its too far, I still got an econs project to hand up on Thursday, and today is already Wednesday. T and K went to take the mrt, but as T and K were going opposite directions , K asked “ do u want me to send u home?” and so T replied..” I would love to, but its too far for u.

The time was about 9 pm, and if K sent T home, he would reach home at about 11++ pm, which would leave him with very little time to do the project. But K, being courteous, said, Its ok, I have nothing to do anyway. (which was a lie , he had his econs project to do ) But K didn’t know that T also took econs and had to hand up her econs project the next day too. So T in her head, she knew that K had to hand up a project, but she didn’t say it out. She simply said “ its ok, I can go home myself, please don’t trouble yourself to send me home” and so K said “ ok, then I shall leave, goood bye~~” and each of them went home themselves.

K didn’t know that T had never gone out so late before, and he didn’t know that T really wanted him to send her home, but anyway, he needed to get home to do the project…

The moment K reached home, he began to bang on his project. He had to add some finishing touches to it. But while he is at it, he kept thinking whether T had reached home. (from the food court to T’s home was about 1.5 hrs journey ) So K msged T to come online the moment she reached home, as K was using the computer which made him unable to use his phone (single house phone line and using dialup)

As K waited online while doing his project, he saw T come online…

story of -=K=- :: part 2

K said “Hey, Although we have often talked online, I didn’t feel that I needed to get your number or anything. I didn’t feel like talking to u in person, I myself don’t know why” something like that..

T replied “ yes, because u are “dao”, always pretend that u never see me. I often wanted to say hi but u were always walking around in a hurry”

So K, at this point of time, know that he had not been “normal” to T. He realised that he was afraid of being normal to T. Why was that so? It is very simple. T bears an uncanny resemblance to K’s gf. Both were sweet petite girls. K was afraid of taking T as a substitute.. ( they were in the same school, but K’s gf at that time was in another Jc ). And so K asked himself, why are u acting so strangely towards T? he didn’t know.

But he said that golden line “do u want to meet me face to face? “ K couldn’t believe that he typed that sentence. He keep telling himself.. If T rejects him this once, he would never think about asking her out again and leave things as they are. He really didn’t know what to do at that point of time. And T replied…..

“u Are always so dao towards me, are u sure u wanna meet me? I don’t mind meeting u face to face..”

K replied “no, I am not someone who is dao… Since u so onz, how about tomorrow? K was just banging on his chances. He was just asking for the sake of asking her, and by asking for tomorrow, K thought that she would have already made programmes…

And so T replied “tomorrow I would be having dance rehearsals….”

And so K thought “well, this is all fated, I would not ask her out anymore….”

BUT … after saying that… T said… “I can meet u after that…”

T was a very protected girl. She can never go out after 8 pm. The latest that she can go is only during special occasions like prom night or chalets with teachers in it. So by asking K to go out after her rehearsals, it meant that T would have to meet K at around 8 pm. BTW T lives in the west, so she was making a move that might get herself into trouble. But when she asked K to meet her after her rehearsals, K didn’t think that T parents were so strict. K didn’t know that she had never gone out with guys till such a “late” time. ( the late time was actually very early, after 8 pm ) And so K replied…..

“can I have your number so that I can contact u to facilitate our meeting?”

And T replied “ sure, can I have your number too?”

And that was how K and T exchanged numbers. For such a long time after knowing T, K has never asked for her number before, neither did T asked for K’s number. But that night, both of them exchanged their numbers after about five months. That changed everything forever.

The next day came, and K was in a dilemna. He told himself, if T was ever going to be late, he would just leave, and leave her a voicemail that he was leaving. And so they fixed the meeting time at 7 pm in the evening. K knows that dance rehearsals usually end at around that time, and T would take sometime to meet him at a certain MRT Station control. So 7 pm came, and K’s heart raced faster. K keep telling himself to wait for T for only 15 mins. The moment K reached, he sent a page to T, telling her that he reached. Time was 7 pm exactly. At that time handphones were not common, only pagers. K hoped that T would be late and so that he wouldn’t wait for her, as he feel very very uneasy to meet T, it was like meeting another variation of his gf.

SO came 7.15, K msged T again to say that he was leaving, bye. Just like that… just as K was about to leave the mrt, he received a page that said please wait for me, I am coming now. So K was really in a dilemna. He didn’t know whether to wait or to leave. But to leave just like that was very very rude as T was already rushing to meet him. So finally he waited…

as 7.20 approached, K thought of his gf, he thought that by meeting T, he was actually being a very unfaithful guy. And he picked himself up to leave. And so K left the mrt station, and walked towards the bus interchange.. when he reached the bus interchange, who else but Fate rounded them up again...

story of -=K=- :: part 1

Long long ago, there was this girl who was in a jc in the east. She was a very charming girl, nice, sweet,pretty, and petite. She had beautiful eyes, and long flowing black hair. She had a very charming smile and a face which radiates youth. Although she is not a sexy girl, she has a sweet , innocent look.

Then there was this guy, who was from another faculty. This guy had a small built, had boyish looks, and looked a little like an ah beng. This guy was in the same jc as this girl, and had a girlfriend in another jc, who was from his secondary school, but when he saw this girl, he was attracted to her. He was captivated by her, but he didn’t do anything, as he knew he was attached. But there was something that was very weird, this girl resembles his current girlfriend a lot, and he cannot help it but steal glances at this girl whenever there is a chance to.

Let this girl be T while the guy be K... and so a year passed, the guy, although he was attracted to the girl, didn’t try anything funny to know her or things like that. But as time passes, the relationship btw him and his current gf started to have problems. They were holding on together while many others have failed. K knew that it was not a good idea to break up with her as that was a crucial point of their lives, the A levels.. but it doesn’t mean that he has no more love for her, it was just that their relationship lacked spice and started to become routine.

One fine day, K went out to celebrate his friend’s birthday and he saw T again at a food court. When he saw her, that funny sensation came back to him again. That weird feeling he had came back to him again. This time, he knows he cannot resist her anymore. But still he didn’t try to get to know her, he fought down that urge again. So after going home, K went online.

This world has something called fate, and it happened btw K and T. T was online too that night. K doesn’t have a habit of talkin to strangers online, but that night, he just felt that he needed to talk to someone. So he went to an irc channel that was their school channel and waited. Fate gave them a chance, and made T come to irc. K had known the nick T used in irc, but didn’t try hard enough to talk to her, until that day , he just plucked up his courage to talk to her… So he double clicked on her nick, and started to say..

“Hi , I saw you today at the food court “

She replied “ Oh were u the one who was wearing the purple shirt with the blue jeans?”

K was amazed that she remembered him. So they chatted happily on irc. At this time in T’s head, she was actually attracted to K . She thinks that K was a very handsome guy. ( From what she told K later on ) So when she saw her that day , it left a very deep impression. And so they talked and talked, and K was happy yet guilty that he had talked to another girl. T knows that K had a gf, so she only chatted with K. So one day passed, and both of them felt happy to have met each other online.

From that day onwards, K knew that he had not been a good guy, he was very sad that he had did something like that. Although when now he thinks back it was perfectly alright, in that period of time he feels that he is a flirt. So whenever he saw T in school, he didn’t say hi or anything. He just walked passed her many times without saying anything. Inside the head of T, she was thinking why K treated her that way. She thought that he was the guy who she had talked to in irc the other day. So she thought that she had talked to a wrong person, but in fact she didn’t. So she was very puzzled in her head, and needed to talk to K again..

But T and K didn’t make an effort to wait for each other in irc as they had not fallen in love at that point of time.. But once again, fate was in action. When K came online one day, T was online again. So K started to talk to T many times online…. Then one of the times when K was feeling down bcos of a quarrel with his gf, he begin to tell T everything… he began to tell her about the problems with his gf.. How his gf neglected him bcos of studying.. and many other things… but at this point of time.. K didn’t feel that he had fallen in love with T. He knows he is attracted to T, but he won’t just give away his other relationship.

T on the other hand, hasn’t like K as well, she just feels that he is a nice person. So when K tell her about his problems with his gf, T was very receptive. She gave him ideas, and offered some solutions.

Never did she say things to worsen their relationship. So T and K became friends who only chatted on Irc. So it became like this, and a few months breezed by. The first time they chatted was during november 1999, and they talked many times till there was one fateful time during march 2000 when they chatted again..

K began to chat with T online, as usual. I remember that it was a Tuesday, that fateful day. K and T chatted just normal talk, and there was an econs project coming along, which was due on Thursday. K and T begin to talk… and K said something that would change their lives forever…

K said...

story of -=K=- :: prologue

came across this story when i am looking thru the forum at work, was written by a forumner called -=k=- at around 1 yr ago (i guess, from all the chronological clues i got there...). it thread actually was removed due to some problem and one kind forumner there got the original and repasted it in the forum recently... that's wat the kind soul wrote: -

"Long long time ago, this dude -=K=- , WC3 chogosu and famous forumner, wrote about his story, about how his ex and him met up and how they fell apart.. at the point of time he was writing it he had just broke off with her.. so he wrote this to give it to her.. It wasn't written one shot.. he wrote it out bit by bit, and recieved quite a lot of support from the old forumners when they learned of his background story..It's a heartfelt story, personally I enjoyed it a lot when I first read it 2 years ago.. and reading it again still reminds me that you must cherish what you have, before it's gone forever..Btw, this isn't a perfect story.. and I didn't say it wasn't biased.. but this is the thing that he wrote, so apart from formatting the thing and some minor correction I've left everything intact."

so myself in turn also dun want to edit the story unless there some formatting work got to be done too... i hope -=k=- and the ppl in forum there dun mind me transfer the story here... its really a nice story, and i am doing it juz for the good-will of sharing this to all my friends and maybe we can learn somthing along the way together... pls feedback to me if there is any suggestion, thought or even objection abt this story being posted here... it will be rather long, abt 50 over parts, so i will update this story in the same time i update my blog... enjoy...

story of -=K=-

as i am going to close my site on the other side, i think i am going to transfer and repost the story abt K here... at least it easier to update regularly here conpare to using dreamweaver... yup, so... i will restart the story from part 1... on the next post...

愛是最大權利 - Ping Pung

可不可與你放膽嬉戲 忘掉日與夜那些限期
不管身邊幾多無聊道理 手拖手與你演出好戲
遊行直到夜晚多淒美 爭取這一次走幾千百里

沿途留心 掌心的知覺也著緊 我認我認我愛得太過份
人群漸近 想改寫你我命運 任天塌下亦前行 哪怕你說我天真

憑我徹底的勇氣 愛是最大權利 不理場面不偉大
我共你始終同游生死 還有哪一種結尾 花光一切在乎你
沒有想過太多 我只需要你

路到盡頭也置之不理 寧願為愛著你不捨棄
爭取多一次我身邊有你 沿途祈禱 始終一天我會望到
你是你是我的所有態度 無從預告 多曲折每段路
路中幾多的勸告 我怕我會聽不到

* 憑我徹底的勇氣 愛是最大權利 不理場面不偉大
我共你始終同游生死 還有哪一種結尾 花光一切別嫌棄
若已想過太多 我只知愛你 *

Repeat *