story of -=K=- :: part 29

There was an incident.. which made K really angry with T again.. K was a guy who only know how to get angry with T... but for this incident... It wasn't anybody's fault at all.. K took leave again to go out with T.. naturally no NSF would want their leave to be wasted... but that day.. T told K... that she cant confirm with him what time would she finish her project... after that.. T would go and look for K ... So K waited at home... He saw T online.. and msged her... " what time will u be coming" And it was about 12 noon... and T keep saying " soon " " soon " .... But T didn't come "soon".. she took a long long time... every now and then.. k would ask her what time will she finish doing the project... and everytime he asked.. T would say soon...

K couldn't understand why T took so long.. although he knows that T had a project, he didn't want to waste his leave just waiting like that... it was really sad to know that ur precious leave is wasted, I am sure everyone knows that...But T felt really pressured... she needed to finish it as fast as she can.. but projects... is not under the control of T alone, there were other members too...

So K got frustrated by the hour... each passing hour makes K felt even more frustrated. Each time T said soon.. he felt like he was being cheated... finally... at 7 pm.. T called K... and guess what she said? She said " do u want to come down to my school and join me and my friends for pool? We are going to play pool now..." Anyone can feel K's frustration? K didn't want to play pool with T or her friends. K didn't want to go out with any other pple. K only wanted T to spend time with him, and now T , who had promised to come over to look for him, asked him to join her friends for pool instead... " what a joke " k thought in his head.. how can T treat him like this.. he thought....

So K got angry.. and said, " forget it, don't meet, u go with them" this abrupt sentence made T feel that K was angry, and so she said... " if u are angry, I meet u only, don't go with them " .. but K, although he wanted so much to meet T when he took leave, decided that T would be happier if she goes out with her friends instead... but instead of saying what he feels... he said.. " go with them, u never wanted to meet me anyway. U made me wait 7 hrs for you, and now u ask me to go and play pool with u and your friends, what a big joke. U like to go with them, then u go with them, dun ask me to come." And he put down the phone...

At that time, K didn't know what T was thinking. Surely she understands that K took leave to go out with her? Surely she knows that K didn't want anyone else togo out with them... Surely she knows that he will be angry when she ask that he go play pool with her friends? Till now... T didn't say why... But K guessed its because she was too tired and wanted to enjoy herself with her friends instead of coming to look for K as it was late. "She don't care about me anymore.. " K thought in his head... That incident made K feel that T had changed...

But in fact... it was K who neglected T first... but at that point of time,.. K didn't know that... he didn't know that T did was a result of what he did.. he was the cause of it all.... That moment was a turning pt in their lives... T was feeling really really tired already...That night.. K waited for T to come home... he wanted to C how late T came home... because T didn't want to look for him because it was late...

in the end.. T came home quite late... and he said..." if u can come home so late... and u didn't want to come and look for me... it is not an excuse.." or something like that. He blamed T for not coming... and T asked him " I thought u asked me to go with them?" I don't know why K said that... but he wanted to say.. " please do not go with them... I have been waiting for u dear..." that was what he wanted to say... but I guess... K's mouth n K's heart are really two separate entities....

story of -=K=- :: part 28

K was a social symbol. He had many many friends from all different walks of life. He had many close friends.. about 20 of them whom felt that K was their very close friend. But, at that time when K was crazy over games.. he neglected all his friends. K didn't start becoming crazy over games just when he bought a computer, he was all along crazy with games... But it was because of his new computer, a super top range pc for gaming that made him so occupied. He didn't meet his friends that often.

He didn't talk to T as long as he did before.. It was really sad now when he thinks of it then... How the h*** did he became so lifeless? To this day, K realises it.. How much precious time did he spend on games.. .n how much he had lost because of it. T became really sad that the loved one she had loved so dearly was in love with something that is dead... a computer. Many a time when T went to look for K... K was on his computer... he prefered to play games instead of talking to T... Now he knows how T felt... T went to take a 1.5 hrs jounrey... just to c K playing on his computer.... How heartbreaking that must have felt....

On K's side.. he didn't know that he had neglected T so badly then... he didn't know that T needed his every ounce of support... T was badly coping with schoolwork.. and K was madly banging on his games... It was a sad sight. But K realised that T is no longer the same T.... so one night.. he asked T a few questions.... He said ... " I think we are drifting further and further apart... I think you need to do something.... Haha.." he said it jokingly... when he said that T need to do something...

But he knows that it takes 2 pple to revive a relationship that has gone awry. Never did K try to understand what T is goin through, he just felt that T was enjoying her life in Uni... and therfore hoped for her to do something just like she always did... But T was already very tired... she had to face school, and still keep giving into the relationship.. T, no matter how great she is, is stilll human.. and human will feeltired... she has become really tired of giving and giving...

So she said.." I know we are drifting apart... but I really have no choice.. every time I am free , u are not... everytime u are free.. I am not... it is not by choice that I m studying so hard... I cannot afford to fail... " T was a sensible girl...but for K.. she didn't gave up... she stills loves K .. and didn't want to give up the relationship so easily...That night... K asked T a question... K asked her.. " is your studies really so important? Let me ask a
question... if u had 2 choices.. one is to fail your exams and retain once... and be with me... and the other choice is u pass your exams and not be with me.. what would be your choice?" K knew that it is a difficult choice to make... But still he asked T... and hoped that T would choose the first option.... T didn't answer the question ... T asked K a question.. " will u take care of me if I fail?" and K said.. "of course I will take care of you..." And T said... " I don't know if you will believe me.. but I would rather fail and be with you if you will take care of me.."

That was very touching to K... No matter how bad their relationship is heading to, K and T still loved each other deeply.... K was touched... he was really touched to hear that... but he said.. " I don't believe it.. u serious?" or something ilke that... K always made it seem that he didn't trust her.

Deep inside, he knew that T was serious... why would she lie? But K's mouth was cursed... he often said the wrong things he didn't mean.... But now... he changed... he spoke with his heart instead of his mouth.. no longer did he not speak the real truth... But now... I think if he asked T the question again... T would have chose the 2nd option...

story of -=K=- :: part 27

This story goes on... with something even worse that happened... K, was a guy who was very much into games .. he liked counterstrike... diablo 2.... Cm3... whatever game u name it, K liked them very much....

K's infatuation with games was serious. He could spend hours on the computer....But as his house Pc was an old one, it couldn't really play the newer games.... There are some guys that are game fanatics... even when they reach 20+ years old.. they can still be hooked on it... Its really quite sad to know that.. but this is a cruel reality. Guys are in fact really more immature than girls. I m not saying that playing games is immature.. just don't over do it.

But K was an idiot... K spent more time with games than with T... the bad thing that happened.. was that K bought a new computer.... K spend all his money in his bank account just to buy a new computer... At that time he bought the computer... he was delighted.... He installed every game that he could find.... Take a look at his desktop and u realise that it is just like a typical computer in a lan gaming shop. The worse part was.. he bought the original diablo 2 game... and became hooked on it.. he played the moment he reached home everyday.. skipped lessons.. and ignored T many times while on it.... He was a freak... a game freak.... There were a few times when he asked his friends.. Am I a game freak? Many times.. they tell him yes... but they didn't tell him that it was wrong... ... once.. K asked someone.." do u think I spend too much time playing games?" K's friend told him.. " at least u are not a flirt, its better to spend extra time playing games than trying to pick up other girls" so K thought to himself... hmm.. that's quite true... I m very faithful to T... because other girls just din interest him, he was more interested in computer games. Everyone might think that it is uncommon... but let me tell u.. open your eyes and look.. there are many guys that are like that....

When K bought a new computer... T was afraid.. she was afraid that K would neglect her.... One day... she asked K a question.. " is games more important or me?" that was the time when K spent almost every hour he had playing games... Whenever T called him and asked him what was he doing.. K would always say... " playing games " T asked... " can u tell me whether games is more impt or me" K... inside his head.... Knew that he liked games a lot... but T and games were different... T was human, while games was dead... so he told T " of course its you, dun be stupid" Although in K's heart, T would be the only woman he loved, but with K's infatuation with games, Games was the one that had been accompanying K in his NS life.. ( note that I used G when I said Games..., it was to show that Games became something that K needed to pass everyday , just like smokers needing cigarettes.. ) T didn't understand K at that time.... It was harder for her to understand what K was going through... She was already out of his life and he was out of hers... so she thought to herself... " fine... he might say this... but I tink what is more important to him is his games.. and not me.." T became sad ... she didn't know why K is like that... Many a time when T needed someone to talk to... K was playing his games... many a time when T needed to ask for help in her studies... ( remember that T was a science student, and K was commerce, ) she called K.. and most of the time.. K was playing his games... T didn't want to bother K with her problems.. so she often said.. nevermind u play your games then. And many times when K heard that... he just say ok.. and he wll continue to play his games .... Every single night.. although he had to book in... he played till very late... There was a few times when he played till the next morning...and then went to work without sleep... That was how hopeless K was.

story of -=K=- :: part 26

To this day.. K read about an email that his friend sent him... his friend sent him an email that goes like this....

" there was once a girl who was very bad tempered... and her mother was very unhappy about it... So she told her..every time u wanted to vent your anger... go to the fence behind our house and knock a nail into it... and so the girl knocked many many nails into the gate..... but one day.. the girl changed... and this time.. her mother told her... now when u curb your anger once and didn't show your temper.. u can pull out a nail from the gate... and so... after some time.. the girl managed to pull our all the 37 nails from the gate.... " and so the moral of the story is... no matter how u remove all the nails... the holes will still be there... old wounds doesn't heal that easily..

So when K read this mail now... he realised that T had many many holes in her heart.. and those were all that he knocked in her... so K told T..." although I know I have knocked many nails in your heart.. I will try my best to be a new piece of wood... that would sacrifice my own wood to patch up those holes I have created...."

And so.. that was when T had just went to school... her school term just started and K had hurt her again... K felt really bad to have made her cry... but he thought that it was over , their love could withstand anything... But it was not to be so.. no woman wants to feel hurt all the time when they are with their loved one...K had a present that was from T.. it was a very meaningful present... when T gave this present to K... she told K... I hope that when u sleep on this , u will think about us... we can sleep on this pillow together.. And it was a pillow.. K treasured this pillow very much.. although he didn't treat T well... he really cherished the pillow and the pillow cover... whenever his mum wanted to use another pillow cover.. K would insist that he use T's pillow cover... That night... T had came to K's house.. and so she left her scent on K's bed and pillow... K told T.." I can smell your scent all over my bed... so I m not going to do anything but lie on my bed.. " T replied. " I like your smell too.." it was very romantic...

But one thing... K and T always talked in that baby talk.. using terms like " hehe.. or u act cutie... , or little K and T... terms like that... it was their special way of communicating.." there was one sms that K remembered very clearly... it goes like this.. " thinking of our little K's and T's now... must be very cute... etc etc..."( the back part was irrelevant, it is not because K forgot ) T was thinking about their future family... the little K's and T's was refering to their kids.... As K and T looked much younger for their age... they had some cute look.. ( I suppose so from what friends say ).. so that is why.. T said that their kids would be very cute...

story of -=K=- :: part 25

To this day.. K read about an email that his friend sent him... his friend sent him an email that goes like this....

"there was once a girl who was very bad tempered... and her mother was very unhappy about it... So she told her..every time u wanted to vent your anger... go to the fence behind our house and knock a nail into it... and so the girl knocked many many nails into the gate..... but one day.. the girl changed... and this time.. her mother told her... now when u curb your anger once and didn't show your temper.. u can pull out a nail from the gate... and so... after some time.. the girl managed to pull our all the 37 nails from the gate.... " and so the moral of the story is... no matter how u remove all the nails... the holes will still be there... old wounds doesn't heal that easily..

So when K read this mail now... he realised that T had many many holes in her heart.. and those were all that he knocked in her... so K told T..." although I know I have knocked many nails in your heart.. I will try my best to be a new piece of wood... that would sacrifice my own wood to patch up those holes I have created...."

And so.. that was when T had just went to school... her school term just started and K had hurt her again... K felt really bad to have made her cry... but he thought that it was over , their love could withstand anything... But it was not to be so.. no woman wants to feel hurt all the time when they are with their loved one...K had a present that was from T.. it was a very meaningful present... when T gave this present to K... she told K... I hope that when u sleep on this , u will think about us... we can sleep on this pillow together.. And it was a pillow.. K treasured this pillow very much.. although he didn't treat T well... he really cherished the pillow and the pillow cover... whenever his mum wanted to use another pillow cover.. K would insist that he use T's pillow cover... That night... T had came to K's house.. and so she left her scent on K's bed and pillow... K told T.." I can smell your scent all over my bed... so I m not going to do anything but lie on my bed..." T replied. "I like your smell too..." it was very romantic...

But one thing... K and T always talked in that baby talk.. using terms like " hehe.. or u act cutie... , or little K and T... terms like that... it was their special way of communicating.." there was one sms that K remembered very clearly... it goes like this.. " thinking of our little K's and T's now... must be very cute... etc etc..." the back part was irrelevant, it is not because K forgot) T was thinking about their future family... the little K's and T's was refering to their kids.... As K and T looked much younger for their age... they had some cute look.. (I suppose so from what friends say).. so that is why.. T said that their kids would be very cute...

the struggle :: part 5

its over, stay tuned for the last installment of 'the struggle :: part 6' this coming april... =)

story of -=K=- :: part 24

But although K didn’t treat T well.. in his heart.. no one can ever replace T… T was like the person meant for him. He knows that…. But he didn’t think that T needs concern and care just like any other woman… Maybe he knows that T needed them.. but he was too “bochup” to do it.. he cared for T and was concerned only at times he feel like it… he didn’t give whole heartedly… All he knows is that he is unhappy everyday…

K was not mentally prepared to serve his country… So everyday he thought this Is the time for T to show that she really can wait for K… so instead of treating her well.. he expected T to treat him better….

This is one thing.. that not many guys know… not many guys can understand what is their gf going through when their love is in national service.. Not many. But on the girl’s side.. neither could they ever understand what it means to be forced to do somethin that u don’t like to do… so neither could understand each other…

No girl can ever know what the guy go through… but there is no excuse… because the guy didn’t know what females go through too… they only know that they are the ones suffering…they couldn’t see that even though the girl is at least studying and all that, they have stress and school problems to cope with too…

But although all these problems surfaced…. It wasn’t enough to rock their relationship… T was still putting wholeheartedly into the relationship… There was once… which K made T cry again… K was pes E remember? So he had the luxury of able to take lessons at night…

Once.. T’s family went abroad… So K hoped to spend another night with T… when I say that K wanted to spend a night with T… I don’t mean that K wanted to have sex with t… K only wanted to re- live the happy memories of the times at the chalet… K wanted to re feel the happiness of intimacy with the one he loved… But T couldn’t. K cannot understand why T could go to her friends place to spend a night or go to some chalet with her friends… and he couldn’t understand why T couldn’t do it for him… He always thought that if T really wanted to spend a night with him.. she could always lie… K always expects his gf to lie to their parents for him… But T couldn’t do it.. she was afraid of getting found out… the consequences would be serious..

K didn’t think about all these… K only knew that T was being unfair to him… He thought that T treated her best friend better… K just couldn’t see it at that time… what made it worse.. he didn’t believe that T wanted to spend a night with him.. He thought that T didn’t want to… why did he think that? It was all because T always tell him she cant, he took it that she didn’t want. So this time.. when T’s family went abroad… K hoped for T to just spend one night with him… Although T parents were away… her brothers were still around, and they were responsible for her…

As each day passed.. K began to get unhappy again… during that time, one incident happened.. which hurt T even more… left another scar in her heart…. T, after returning home from school… was tired and needed to rest… but she thought… abuot cooking a meal for K and bringing it to him before his evening class.. this was the sweetest thing someone in her 18s would do… but before T did it… she was tired and went to sleep first…

K lesson start at 6.45.. and so he didn’t want T to be late… And he told T.. if u really wanted to cook for me.. please do not be late or I wont have time to eat the dinner u cooked… T didn’t know that K’s lesson started at 6.45.. she thought that his lesson started at 7… but she rushed and rushed… she woke up a little late… and K started to feel that she had the mind to do it.. but not the heart as she was late… K, who had been unhappy because of T not agreeing to spend 1 night with him… had that in his mind all along… so when T was late… he wasn’t happy at all… T reached there at 6.45, and the only thing that K said when T reached was… “ why are u so late? I have no more time to eat it already…”

If the dinner was bought… That would have meant nothing to T.. but the dinner she made for K was with her heart and love… she wanted to do it just for K… Did I tell u before that T didn’t know how to cook before she met K? But when she knew K, she learned how to cook a few dishes from her mum just to cook for K…..

But at that moment… K knew that T had put in effort to cook for him… but his mind got the better of him.. and instead of saying sweet words to T.. he said hurtful ones… he said.. if u really wanted me to have dinner before lessons.. u wouldn’t have been late…. Do u all know why T made dinner for K? it was because… K always told t that he hoped for her to cook for him… he also told T that everytime he had evening lessons.. he skipped dinner… Although T couldn’t cook everyday… she hoped to at least do it once for him…

But K was unhappy with T… so even though he knew that T did it all for him… he didn’t let her know.. he didn’t made T feel appreciated… he made T felt hurt when he said why was u so late… Maybe from that day on.. T stopped doing so much anymore… but K didn’t know…

T burst into tears when K said those words… she said… “ do u know I felt when I was late? I didn’t want to be late… I din want to spend money taking a cab.. so I waited for the bus instead… I put in effort to bring all these to you.. but u don’t appreciate it… “ and she started to cry… When T cried.. K felt like crying too.. K said “I'm sorry… because if u were late it serves no purpose.. I have no time to eat it..” In his heart..

K felt really happy that T would do such a thing… but he didn’t say it out… why do I say that K felt really happy? It was because later during the lesson… he kept thinking what a sweet gf he have… he was really really happy. He put his food on the table.. and didn’t have time to eat it as he said… but all throughuot the lesson.. he kept lookin at it…. He even told his friend that it was his gf that cooked for him.. I guess T was really heartbroken when K was unhappy for her being late.. and went home … with another scar in her heart… When K got home.. hetold T that he is eating her dinner now.. and told her that he appreciates it … but I guess T was already hurt again earlier on… it was another case of being too late…

the perfect couple

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story of -=K=- :: part 23

K continued serving his Ns… and T was preparing to go to university.. During the times when T hadnt enter university, they were still very much in love.. Every time , K would meet T.. and they were still as good as ever.. They were a dynamic couple… Complemented each other well.. it was just like they were two halves.. K was a clerk, remember? So K had the luxury of booking out everyday.

But K didn’t want to waste his army life. K thought to himself… If I come out of army 2.5 years later… T would still be in university… Oh yah, forgot to say anything about K’s A level results.. K passed all his subjects.. but his grades for maths were too poor for him to b e considered for university.. he got an E.. So he thought to himself.. that during this time.. he has got to take a certain degree course… so that.. when he got out of army, he could start to support T…

Everything he did.. he considered T as his first priority… He and T planned very very far ahead… but little did they know that it was not to be… K still rememberd one night.. when he asked T.. when do u want to get married?? And T said… when you want to marry me… and K would always say “ right now” and then T would blush and say not now she is still studying… And so K planned to be able to support T the moment he came out of Ns.. so that they will live a happy life together…

But all these that K thought of, T didn’t really wanted that… She didn’t wanted K to do it for her… she wanted K to do it for himself… Doing all these things didn’t meant anything to K if there was no more T… T was ½ the reason remember? T was K’s motivating factor… but T didn’t know it… She didn’t know that if K didn’t have her… HE would be a diff person totally.. Just like how T changed… T had become a better person because of K.. Love changes a person for the better…

But K… K was a sad case… it was all because of his mentality.. that he and T would be together forever.. that made him neglect T… All inside his mind was.. “ T and me are made for each other.. and we will never break up.. “ that is why K thinks… all his life he had never met someone like T whom he is head over heels in love with.. it’s the same situation with T…. she has never gone so crazy over a guy before.. ( the words of her best friend ) T never ever thought that she will break up with K… she also thought that K would be with her forever and get married… But they had different views..

While K knew that T would be with her forever, he didn’t treasure her.. he didn’t feel for her.. think for her.. be considerate for T…take care of T… show concern for T…. he didn’t try to understand what T was going through in her life… the more he thinks they are made for one another, the more he didn’t treat her as well as he should.. But T was different… The reason why T always change and sacrificed for K is because she knows that she loves him and wanted to be with him and get married... so she didnt mind putting everything into the relationship.. But T was going to university.. and everything would change soon…

story of -=K=- :: part 22

These are words that changed K and T’s story forever. K was shocked and sad… he recalled how T looked when she left.. he recalled how strangely she has been acting that day… He needed to talk to T.

So he rushed home.. and began to call T… He tried many many times…. Many many many many times… but T wouldn’t pick up the phone… But K didn’t give up.. He knows that T and him were meant to be together… He needed to find out the problem between them.

As I have said before, K didn’t know that T cried and was sad every night… He didn’t know that his bad temper and his foul mouth had made T very sad every single day.. He was a very insensitive guy… So when T told K she wanted to break up with him, K couldn’t believe what he heard… He persisted.. he called.. and he called…. Finally.. T picked up the phone…

K and T had a heart to heart talk.. K asked T a very simple question… “ do u love me” and T said “yes.. I do… “ And so K began to find out what is the problem between them… And as he asked, he realised that he had treated T bad temperedly… Then he told T, I know I have been bad tempered since i enlisted.. please try to be understanding…

But T said” I know that… do u know that I have been crying every night? Did u know how sad I felt when u were mean to me?” T couldn’t take it when K was mean to her…. And so K made a promise to T.. he said that he will try his best not to be bad tempered or scold T harshly…. Eventually, K and T didn’t break up…

T didn’t sleep the whole night… She knew that she loved K , and when the next morning came, K, on his way to work, received a call from t.. who was in tears…. Saying. “ I don’t want to break up with u anymore.. I love you..” K’s heart was filled with love again…He had so much feelings… he had so much to say to T.. but he didn’t say anything.. all he said was..” don’t say break up anymore ok T? I love u.. I don’t wish to break up with you…” K said “ we are meant to be together, please don’t give up so easily…”

But… once the break up word is said.. nothing is ever going to be the same anymore… K tried his best not to be mean to T or fierce, but he couldn’t do it. At times when T made him unhappy he became fierce.. which hurts T again and again… And sometimes when T made him unhappy… he would say break up… He wanted to let T know how hurtful it was when the word is said… He wanted T never to say the words again, and that was why he said it…. K was a guy that didn’t think like normal guys do. K thought that if he said break up to T, T would know what it feels, and will not say it again… but he over did it…

whenever they had a quarrel… K would say break up… sometimes he said it harshly, sometimes he said it jokingly… But T never treated it as a joke… When K said it, T always took it to heart…Every time K said break up, T’s heart was scarred once… It was that painful… but K didn’t realise it until now… The only sentence that fits the bill is .. The course of true love never did run smooth…

story of -=K=- :: part 21

And so T brought K and his 2 friends to the event… but ALAs… they didn’t have tickets for 3 pple, they only had tickets for 2. T didn’t need a ticket as she was a senior in the school, and so K and his 2 friends were stranded. They didn’t know what to do. And to make matters worse, K brought another couple there as well, so in the end, 5 pple had to go in with 2 tickets, but that is not possible… After waiting for a long time.. K’s friends , the couple, left. They decided to leave after waiting for some time..

T , on the other hand.. didn’t care about K … all she did. Was talk to her friends whom she havent met for a long time.. while k and company was thinking of how to go in, T was there, talking to her friends and didn’t bother about K… K, was unhappy, but he didn’t say anything to T. He thought of how to get in… Suddenly, T came up.. and gave the two tickets to K’s friend while K was talkin on the phone with another friend… T told them , here are two tickets, good luck.. and she went in herself… K, after putting down the phone, asked his friends, where was T??? They said T went in already.

K was very sad at this time… He thought in his head.. why did T do this? T should at least wait for K and his friends to be able to get in before getting in herself. He felt that T was acting funny…and being very selfish… K felt as though his heart had fallen a few feet… He was feeling down.

K thought and thought… He didn’t know how to get in… eventually.. he approached a dance member…. He talked and talked… and finally persuaded the dance member to help… this dance member got her teacher to let K in.. So K got in himself… As he went in, he searched everywhere for T.. he needed to talk to T… he wanted her to know that it wasn’t right to just dump him outside.. If not for K’s luck, he would never have gotten in. So he searched, and he searched, but it was pitch black in side. K decided to msg T… “ where are u now?” T replied where she was.. and K went to look for her…

T totally felt different that day… she wasn’t the same old T… She was cold to K… K asked T to go sit with him… but T refused.. she said she wanted to sit where her friends were… This puzzled K even more… T always followed K wherever he sits…. And so K asked again… But still T refused … T wanted to sit with her friends….. K was sad.. and hurt. He kept thinking why did T react so ddifferently that night…

But K decided to keep that aside for the time being… do u remember that the real motive K went to the dance event? It was to have another dance with T….Little did he know that he was in for a shock… And so the night began to get late… It was time for the dance to start after the competition is over….

Suddenly, K received a message..” I feel sick, I want to go home now” and that msg was from T.. K was sad… all his hopes were dashed… So he replied “ can we have a dance first before going?” But T replied, “ no, I really want to go now..” And so K, sadly, accompanied T out…. K told his friends, “please wait for me, I will come back.” And T and K begin to sit at a place in school while waiting…

To this day.. K still remembered everything that T said… K asked T.” why do u want to leave so early? U didn’t want to dance with me?” And T replied , “ I really felt sick.. I just want to go home/…” and K replied. “ why? U are not sick… is there any problem?” and T replied “ I don’t know..” K then told T..” Do u know how Sad I feel when u went in by yourself and left me outside?” T replied.. “ I really don’t know.. I don’t know what I was thinking…” T seemed to have broken down… she felt so uneasy when talking…

K decided to give T a break, so he said.. ok.. rest well when u get home… and then he gave the cab driver 20 bucks and put T into the cab… Then K went back to his friends.. Both of them were a little angry at K as they waited a long time for him to go home…Just as they were walking home, K received a message… To this day.. K can still remember the exact words that T said..

"Lets break up, I did not like anybody else "

Your Birthdate: September 5

You have many talents, and you are great at sharing those talents with others. Most people would be jealous of your clever intellect, but you're just too likeable to elicit jealousy. Progressive and original, you're usually thinking up cutting edge ideas. Quick witted and fast thinking, you have difficulty finding new challenges. Your strength: Your superhuman brainpower Your weakness: Your susceptibility to boredom Your power color: Tangerine Your power symbol: Ace Your power month: May

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

story of -=K=- :: part 20

But fate wasn’t kind to K. Fate posted K to a place where everyone had evil in their hearts. Every single person in that place were bad. K felt very unhappy there… it made him stressed up, and his health problems came back again. Once again he couldn’t eat well… and he felt terrible every single day of his life there.

But the worse thing that happened to K, was that he became bad tempered. He was back to the old K.. T had no more power to nurture him.. as she no longer spends that much time with K….. one night.. k told T “ how I missed the times when we just finished our A levels … Everyday was so carefree…” K doesn’t know whether now T remembered that sentence…. But it was a very meaningful sentence, Those were the times when K and T were the happiest…Everyday was happy, there was no worries, no problems… all they can be was to enjoy life… but now.. K had to have responsibilities.. no mistake can be done at work or he would face disciplinary actions.. K felt sad… K needed to breathe…

and as each day passed.. K changed.. K became a “bochup” which means everything that comes to K he didnt care... His character changed as well.. he became bad tempered, that was the main change, but the worse change was that he begun to treat T bad temperedly as well.. ( I m not sure whether there is the word badtemperedly”) haha.. Yah, and he treated T bad temperedly. Many times he quarrelled with T, and caused T to feel hurt and sad, and Everyday T felt sad that K treated her that way…

TTdidn’t understand what K was going thru, the fact that he was stuck in NS for 2.5 yrs, K wasn’t mentally prepared.. he wasn’t mature enough to.. But T endured it.. T didn’t say anything about her crying alone at night… T didn’t put it across to K that she felt really really hurt… No one told K about it too.. K himself didn’t know that he changed to become so hack care of T and bad tempered..it was really scary.. he didn’t know that he himself have changed….

K enlisted in apr 2001, and there was a certain JC dance event that was in May every year It was memorable to K and T as in the year 2000, K and T went to that event together… That was when they had their first dance..

K and T didn’t go to nightspots.. so the only chance they could dance was when there was such events. K could still remember how he hugged T when he danced with her… the feeling was just great.. T was K’s everything at that time.. He almost cried out tears of joy that night… but he didn’t tell T, as it was dark. T was from dance, and so she decided to go back to school in the year 2001…

K decided to take leave for that day, and so K and T prepared to go back to school together. Before that day, K kept thinking and reminiscing about the same time last year when he had T in his arms and dancing with emotions… He kept thinking that he had to dance with T that night… T was from dance, so naturally K asked T to get 3 tickets, one for him, and 2 for his 2 friends, the 2 whom accompanied him to watch T dance before at Suntec. K wanted so badly to have another dance with T.

Although K had become more bad tempered, the love he had for T was still strong and burning within. So when T and K went back to school.. K had many memories.. He remembered all the times when he had spent in school with T.. But he didn’t know that T was very unhappy.. T cried every night.. but K didn’t know.. T suffered many things.. but she didn’t let K know…

I have said many things about K bad habits.. but T also had a bad habit… she didn’t want K to know her sadness, and her hurt.. Never did she told K that she had been crying every night since K became bad tempered and was stern to T. So K didn’t know why T was acting strangely the whole day. K was insensitive, and to make matters worse, T often suffered in silence. K took leave that day, the first time he took leave .. and it was only a month into his service. So he hope tat his leave didn’t go wasted… For the whole day he thought of dancing with T… but in T’s head.. she had other thoughts… she decided that she couldn’t take K’s bad temper anymore.. she wanted to break up with K.

story of -=K=- :: part 19

Then valentine’s day 2001 came.. and K took leave and T took leave to spend the day together…. K can still remember what happened the whole day… it is forever implanted into his memory…K bought a black dress for T as a valentine’s day gift.. and to this day he has only seen T wear it twice… But anyway… they spent that day together…. T wrote a card to T… with the envelope adressed to ..” To the one and only one that deserves to see this, K” and wrote about her feelings together with K.. although she had been sad a few times in the relationship, generally she was happy with K… the lines that K would always remember “ Everytime I quarrel with u I feel very sad, I wish that we will never quarrel.” “I will try to be the best gf that u ever had” K kept it in his mind forever… till this day….

K was not a man of words… he had never wrote letters or anything to T. Every gift that he gave T, was bought. He didn’t gave her anything that is written with feelings before….

And so the day came for K to be enlisted. K was a pes E guy remember? So he would only go to P tekong for one week… But one week without T was bad.. although K and T had endured a month without seeing each other, K didn’t want to go through the pain again.. but he had no choice. And so he brought hp and charger to camp. Every night that K was there, he thought about T.. it was just like the time when T left Singapore. Every night, K couldn’t sleep. K saw all his bunk mates sleeping, but he was still talking on the phone with T secretly under the blankets. After putting down the phone, K would think of T till it was really late at night.. like 3 am… although they had to wake up at 5.15 am , K often waited till 3 am before sending a final message to T… T missed K when he was there too… Every single message that she received seemed to be more meaningful that any other message that K had ever sent to her.

One of this was.. “ everyone is asleep right now.. while I am still in my bed thinking of you… I think I have found my wife already…” and that was 3 am in the morning…At that time, K realised how impt. T was to him… he realised that he couldn’t do without T…

And so the day came for K to come out of P tekong, Pes E personel, very happy, 1 week and he is out. And the day he came out, T was waiting at P Ris for K…. T missed K as badly as K missed T. That day, K parents were overseas, and so K brought T to his house… K was really tired.. so all he did was sleep at home.. But T didn’t mind at all, T slept with K as though she had a duty to do so… Both of them spent the whole day together at K’s place, and K asked T, would u stay tonight?

But T , once again let me remind u that T was a very protected girl, she could not stay overnight just like that.. K pleaded with T, hoping that she would try to cook up an excuse for staying out.. But eventually T couldn’t think of any excuse last minute… and she had to leave…So K became sad… he kept thinking.. if she cant even cook up an excuse to be with him even when this is a golden opportunity, then how was T going to make time for him in future?

And so K, although he wanted so badly for T to stay, had to let her go home instead…..

story of -=K=- :: part 18

But life was never ever going to be the same for K and T… K was male, and all males got to go to NS. T was a JC student, and she gotta go to university. When K realised it, he began to lose all his confidence… but still, he didn’t show it. He believed that their love could stand the test of time. Although he know that T would wait for him, he often accused T of not going to wait for him…

K had this bad habit of saying what is untrue.. He kept saying that when he enlist, T would go to university and run off with another guy.. he is insecure… Many pple told K that the real test happens between couples when the guy is off to NS and the girl is off to university.. which made K scared… The more K got scared, the more he said it… he kept saying.. that T would leave him… T didn’t know what to say.. T loved K... and she hoped for K to trust her… but K often made it seem like he doesn’t trust T...

It is really very bad. Throughout the whole time that K and T were together, K had never ever doubted T before.. but also throughout the whole time that they were together, K made it seem like he had never trusted T before… Don’t ask me why K is like that, I guess this is his insecure trait…

So when that daywhen K went for his medical review, T prayed hard for K to be Pes E or some pes which he didn’t have to stay in, so that she could meet him at night…

And so K went for his review.. and he wanted to scare T as usual.. K loved to tease T.. he liked to test T too… sometimes he do things just to test T… and this time.. he called T.. and he said.” Oh no, they give me Pes A.. I die already.. and he began to sound sad.. he said.. I m going to lose u T.. I cant meet u at night or whatever … and u will leave me… and he said… sorry… I m very sad now… I really don’t know what to do… take care T…” and T began to become very sad… she said “ don’t worry K, even though u are pes A , I will not leave you… I will still wait for u … “

K was touched, and he said.. haha..i am not Pes A.. I am temporary pes E… for 1 year… that time was january.. And T was delighted… I didn’t know that girls can be so happy when their bf is Pes E. It puzzled me.. I always thought that Pes A is macho, strong, and is the type that girls would look for… but I was wrong… T was very happy that K was Pes E… she kept saying “ happie! Happie!…..” it was indeed a touching moment…

So K and T both found a job… a temporary job…. Before he enlists and before T went to university...

deadlines...

juz came back fm yifeng's rm for 3214... 36 hrs awake, with 4 hrs sleep in between, amazingly, i played soccer at the 20th hr... going mad... one big monster module... which leaves me completely no time on 3265 and jap oral, really sorry to my 65 teammates, i cant really contribute much on the presentation, and jap oral, hah! i wonder...

i will play soccer again later bah... like cb said, "a man has no limit", haha, i will test this statement later... 48hrs, here i go...!

story of -=K=- :: part 17

So when T came back, the bond btw K and T became stronger. Then came a time when T had a chalet.. It was her family’s chalet.. the chalet lasted 3 days 2 nights, but T’s family was only going to go to the chalet on the 2nd day. And so, T wanted K to go to the chalet with her, her 2 brothers, and her brother’s wife, and her little cousin. Her little cousin was a very cute girl, around 9 years old. K wanted to go to the chalet with T too. The chalet was in sentosa, and K went all by himself to the chalet..

The time spent at the chalet was the most memorable time in the story of K and T…. It was like this….K and T hadnt spent any time over night before. As T was a protected girl, the only time she can spend her time at night outside was when she was either with her parents or a gathering with a teacher. So when K can make it for this chalet, T was delighted.. she could spend a night with K , and her parents wouldn’t know. T planned for K to come and discussed how to not let her parents know with her two brothers... And so.. K came to the chalet… That night, there was a bbq. Everyone tried to eat whatever they cooked, but they couldn’t make it.. the fire was too weak. In the end, they threw everything into the oven and started to cook.. It was a funny sight.

T and K were at the chalet like a married couple, they did everything together, like washing plates, cleaning ovens, and cooking. They helped each other, and shared whatever food they have... burnt or uncooked. Haha. It was heartwarming to c T and K so happy that day. The day passed so fast that in a flash.. it was night….

T’s brother had arranged for K and T and her little cousin to sleep in the master bed room, with K on a single bed and T and her cousin on the master bed. They put the little cousin in the room to prevent T and K from doing anything funny.. T and K both knew it, but T and K just wanted to spend a night together. As the night became later, T and K couldn’t get to sleep. K turned to look at T, and T turned to look at K, separated by the floor between the two beds. For many minutes , they kept staring at each other. K wanted to hug T and pull her under the covers, but he couldn’t. T wanted to go over to K’s bed and lie together with him, but there was the little cousin that was still awake and they didn’t want her to know anything. When T and K climbed into bed, it was 12 O clock. And for the time from 12 O clock till 2 O clock, although both were already very tired, They didn’t get to sleep.. they were waiting for T’s little cousin to sleep first. They long to sleep together.

Every minute passed, and the longing became higher. Finally, there was no more sound from T’s cousin.. the time was about 2 am… T started to climb out of bed.. and went to lock the door…..

And that night was a night that they would never forget. They spent some intimate moments together… After T locked the door… she climbed over to K’s bed and ……..

And after some time they begin to sleep… the time was about 3 am… For one hour, T and K slept….. while sleeping.. suddenly.. T heard someone calling her.. “ sis, sis… sleep with me please…” and there was T’s little cousin …. K and T both woke up… they realised that they had slept in each others arms. T , with sadness in her eyes, climbed out of bed and went to the other bed to sleep… from that moment.. K and T began to look at each other again… they looked and they looked, and once again they were separated by that floor… They didn’t know how long they looked into each other’s eyes.. but they eventually dozed off….

story of -=K=- :: part 16

So when T came back, the bond btw K and T became stronger. Then came a time when T had a chalet.. It was her family’s chalet.. the chalet lasted 3 days 2 nights, but T’s family was only going to go to the chalet on the 2nd day. And so, T wanted K to go to the chalet with her, her 2 brothers, and her brother’s wife, and her little cousin. Her little cousin was a very cute girl, around 9 years old. K wanted to go to the chalet with T too. The chalet was in sentosa, and K went all by himself to the chalet..

The time spent at the chalet was the most memorable time in the story of K and T…. It was like this….K and T hadnt spent any time over night before. As T was a protected girl, the only time she can spend her time at night outside was when she was either with her parents or a gathering with a teacher. So when K can make it for this chalet, T was delighted.. she could spend a night with K , and her parents wouldn’t know. T planned for K to come and discussed how to not let her parents know with her two brothers... And so.. K came to the chalet… That night, there was a bbq. Everyone tried to eat whatever they cooked, but they couldn’t make it.. the fire was too weak. In the end, they threw everything into the oven and started to cook.. It was a funny sight.

T and K were at the chalet like a married couple, they did everything together, like washing plates, cleaning ovens, and cooking. They helped each other, and shared whatever food they have... burnt or uncooked. Haha. It was heartwarming to c T and K so happy that day. The day passed so fast that in a flash.. it was night….

T’s brother had arranged for K and T and her little cousin to sleep in the master bed room, with K on a single bed and T and her cousin on the master bed. They put the little cousin in the room to prevent T and K from doing anything funny.. T and K both knew it, but T and K just wanted to spend a night together. As the night became later, T and K couldn’t get to sleep. K turned to look at T, and T turned to look at K, separated by the floor between the two beds. For many minutes , they kept staring at each other. K wanted to hug T and pull her under the covers, but he couldn’t. T wanted to go over to K’s bed and lie together with him, but there was the little cousin that was still awake and they didn’t want her to know anything. When T and K climbed into bed, it was 12 O clock. And for the time from 12 O clock till 2 O clock, although both were already very tired, They didn’t get to sleep.. they were waiting for T’s little cousin to sleep first. They long to sleep together.

Every minute passed, and the longing became higher. Finally, there was no more sound from T’s cousin.. the time was about 2 am… T started to climb out of bed.. and went to lock the door…..

And that night was a night that they would never forget. They spent some intimate moments together… After T locked the door… she climbed over to K’s bed and ……..

And after some time they begin to sleep… the time was about 3 am… For one hour, T and K slept….. while sleeping.. suddenly.. T heard someone calling her.. “ sis, sis… sleep with me please…” and there was T’s little cousin …. K and T both woke up… they realised that they had slept in each others arms. T , with sadness in her eyes, climbed out of bed and went to the other bed to sleep… from that moment.. K and T began to look at each other again… they looked and they looked, and once again they were separated by that floor… They didn’t know how long they looked into each other’s eyes.. but they eventually dozed off…

楓 - 周杰倫

烏雲在我們心裡擱下一塊陰影
我聆聽沉寂已久的心情
清晰透明　就像美麗的風景
總在回憶裡才看的清

＊被傷透的心能不能夠繼續愛我
　我用力牽起沒溫度的雙手
　過往溫柔已經被時間上鎖
　只剩揮散不去的難過＊

＃緩緩飄落的楓葉像思念
　我點燃燭火溫暖歲末的秋天
　極光掠奪天邊　北風掠過想你的容顏
　我把愛燒成了落葉
　卻換不回熟悉的那張臉

　緩緩飄落的楓葉像思念
　為何挽回要趕在冬天來之前
　愛你穿越時間　兩行來自秋末的眼淚
　讓愛滲透了地面
　我要的只是你在我身邊＃

REPEAT＊

在山腰間飄逸的紅雨
隨著北風凋零　我輕輕搖曳風鈴
想　喚醒被遺棄的愛情
雪花已鋪滿了地　深怕窗外楓葉已結成冰

REPEAT＃

story of -=K=- :: part 16

To hear T’s voice after so long was like heaven to him. He was overwhelmed with joy.. the first thing he asked T was..

”do u know I was waiting for u every night to call me? Why did u take so long?“

But K didn’t blame T, as long as T called, it didn’t matter if K needed to wait for many days…So K and T began to talk… it was very mushy…. Haha.. Although they were in different places, K could feel T beside him.. K could feel the warmth of T… But the call was short lived… every call that T made cost about 10-15 sing dollars,and it was only for a short 10 to 20 mins.. But T spent all the money she had to call K. T didn’t mind spending at all, she knows that every min spent talking to K was worth it. One Night, T told K, that she has no more money to call K anymore, and that would be the last time..

K didn’t want that to happen.. So he told T to use her family’s phone to make long distance call instead of going to public payphones. So T decided that would be good.. And so T used her family’s phone to call K, and they ended up talking a lot. T’s family over there was rich, so they wouldn’t mind. K asked T, then would u come back to spend christmas with me? And T replied, I will try mybest to go back before christmas…

Although K missed T every single day, and didn’t feel like doing anything else except waiting for K at night, T felt the same too. Over at that country, T made those bands for K. She made a single one every time she thought of K. She missed K dearly too. Although they were young, they had made plans to be together for a long time. Each band she made was with all her heart and soul, she put her mind into it and with every band she made, K was the one who made her go on making and making. Before T left, K asked T to do some handicrafts for him if she missed him, and T didn’t respond, but while she was over there making these bands, she didn’t let K know as well. She meant for it to be a surprise when she comes back to Singapore.

So K and T had a difficult one month… Every day that passed made the heart grow fonder.. So when T came back, K was delighted.. he was filled with happiness…He told himself that he would never let T go away for such a long time anymore. He knows that T would be the person that is going to be in his life forvever. T missed K too.. when she came back, the first person that she called was K. The first person that she wanted to meet was K… Love is a funny thing.. Love makes two pple do things that they have never done before in their life… K learnt this the hard way….

story of -=K=- :: part 15

And the A levels went passed. Straight after the A levels, K and T begin to go out each week.. as many times as they wanted.. they were into the happiest time of their lives… But happy times are often short lived.

K’s birthday was in december, and T, one day, told K that she had to go back to a certain country. T’s maternal family was from this country, and so she had to go back to visit… and whenever T went back to visit, it would take about a month.. K was shattered.. K really loved T and T really loved K, and T didn’t want to go, but she had no choice.. So when T told K, K became very sad.. K didn’t know whether he would miss T like crazy.

At that moment, it was about 8 months into the relationship, but they were still having their honeymoon period. On that day before T went to indonesia, K said something that made him and T cry… K began..

"when I c pple hand in hand during the time when u were in indonesia, I will think of you..

When I c couples laughing happily.. I will think of you..

When I c couples sitting together in the mrt, and I turn to my side, there would only be a blank seat..

I can only imagine u there being with me..its really sad..

When I c couples watching movies together, I also would want to watch a movie with u, but as I turn around to comment about the movie, I would c no one but a blank seat..

When I want to put my arms around u, I would happily stretch my arm.. and realise that all I m hugging was thin air..

When at night I feel like calling you, I would dial ur number, xxxxxxx, and ring.. and there will not be anyone to pick up the phone..

I will think of you when I take out our photos to c, I will think of you when I c the gifts u have given me before.. I will think of you every night and every second, because I love you..”

And so K was in tears, and T was touched.. T didn’t know K would cry for her, but she saw that.. Although at this point of time everyone may think that K is being crappy, Let me tell u all that K really meant it in his heart.. And so, T finally left… throughout the first few days, everyday was unbearable for K and T.. K wanted so much to talk to T, and T missed K so much. K was sad everyday, everything he did seemed to have no meaning. He went out with friends, played computer games, played pool, watched movies, went bowling.. but everything he did, he did it just because of doing it. He didn’t do it because he felt like doing it, He just had nothing else to do. All he could do all day was think of T.

T said that when she had found her family there, she would call him, and she would only call him at 10 pm as there wuold be a timing difference btw that country and singapore, and so she fixed a time with K.

So everyday, K would go bowling, play pool, play computer games, go out, movie, eat, shop.. he would do everything… but whenever the time reaches 9, k would rush home like cinderella who was going to turn into a maid. K rushed home everyday to wait patiently for T’s call. As I write this story, I cant help but have tears coming into my eyes.

K rushed home everyday, hoping that T would call soon… there were many times when K’s family members were using the phone… and he quarrelled with his sister many times and begged his parents to keep the line free from 10 to 11, hoping that T would call. For the first few days, K waited, he waited every single day…

When 10 O clock came, he was filled with hope.. Every single min passed, and K felt sadder each minute… For the first day, K waited patiently by the phone… Each min brought feelings to him.. he was hoping, waiting, thinking, missing his love, T. Pple might think K was stupid to sit by the phone for 1 hr everyday and doing nothing else, but that was what he did. So each and every minute passed and T didn’t call K for the first day. K at 10 O clock and K at 11 O clock was entirely different. K at 10 O clock was someone filled with hope, but K at 11 O clock was a sad, dejected, disappointed man. Although it was only a call, it meant everything to him at that time.

Everyone knows that K was bad tempered, easily angered, had male chauvinism, and never admits he is in the wrong when he is… but K had some good qualities, and one of it was he was an emotional, sentimental guy. He was kind hearted and thoughtful at many times. He would think of others first before himself, and had a good sense of humour. All these qualities that K had, the best one was sentimental. K never fails to take out their chat log to read once in a while.. and K never failed to take out the pictures he took with T to see. So K waited each passing day.. and each passing day he became sadder… He kept thinking.. why hadnt T called him?

Finally, one of these nights, K was once again sitting by the phone by 9.55 am… he shut out every1 when they wanted to use the phone… he was selfish… he must make the line free for T to call.. Any call looking for his sister he would tell them to call back at 11… and so.. that night.. K waited.. earnestly.. everyday passed he became disapointed, but when the next day came, he became filled with hope again. So he waited, and waited.. K could still remember the time which T called.. it was exactly 10.25 pm. He waited for 25 mins, and when the phone rang, he knew that it was T.. he just had that feeling…